" to hear D for so long is just so frustrating. she just drains all of my energy and i feel myself melting. i'm melting and i cant take it anymore"says A

"it is like a kittycat. meow" says tyra
nigel goes" meow"

antm is so addictive. i can watch it a thousand times and laugh at the judges comments over and over again. i think the episode tonight was the 3rd or 4th time i watched it?but it's still gdd.

ok besides that.work has been fine. spent most of my time thinking what i shld do when there wasnt anything to be done. and yay! i have been a good girl this week. practised my piano everyday. great achievement.i hope i improve though.

ciao!

one week of working has passed. it was okay. rather slack bcos there wasnt much to be done. sadly,they blocked many websites on their network and i could only communicate via email! and spend my time surfing. initially i tot that part time wasnt gd and i wanted a 9-5 job. but as of now, this arrangement is not bad since i get to practise my wondaful *coughs!*piano skills in the morning before heading to work at noon. starting to feel the pressure. i really think i am so dead. hopefully i get my fingers in shape when march comes. nervous, i want to end my almost 10 years long of saturdays lessons well. if not it really is a waste isnt it.

my sis spent almost 3 hours toking christianity to me. from 12 - 3am last night. and she says i am a lukewarm christian. one that believe but doesnt like to commit. i really think i am. i don't think of after death scenarios. i dont really tok to my friends abt christ( bcos i dunno how to start.and i awlays think it is hardly possible for someone of another religion to become a christian). sighs. i dont deny i'm a bad christian. or probably a stubborn person who refuses to change my way of thinking. yeah. it's true that with god all things are possible. that i agree. but i always still have this part of me thinking in human way rather than thinking of God. gahhh. this sucks. i do really need to be less stubborn do i. it's hard la. to change ur perspectives.
but i guess i will take a step at a time slowly. it's hard to suddenly change everything.

it's cny soon. i shld reallyx10000 times start to get my lazy ass moving and go running. it's been 2 weeks since i last ran. and i'm thinking of signing up for somekickboxing or aerobics or issit body sculpturing thingy. but currently noo time at all. or maybe go learn swimming. no time too. guess i wont have time any time soon. =( or wadever it is. i shld get my heart pumping before my arteries get clogged with fats.

CYA.time for bed.

Flightless Bird, American Mouth


I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your straight blind eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
And when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere


Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous,
weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill looming

Now I’m a fat house cat
Cursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide/white fence cracks
Kissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, brown hair bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth Big bill,
stuck going down






this song's awesome. but i have yet to figure out the meaning of the lyrics which is a little far too cheem for me to comprehend.apparently gt to do with some american's dreams. but the melody is really gd. the last soundtrack in twilight while bella and edward were dancing. loved it the first time i heard it.

past2008present2009

2008
completed A's. done with school. did my last napfa. became less antisocial i hope( though i am still). nomore math anymore except for the simpler ones. done with waking up at 5.30 everymorning. ran 21k.ate macs for almost 2 months 5days a week. gain weight. did or did not grow taller but grew fatter.

2009
ERM. practise piano more often hopefully at least 5 times a week. pass my piano exam. go church more often. be a better christian.be more financially sound and ept. save electricity. be less gluttony. exercise more. shed more fats. sign up for more runs. get ready for unilife. be prepared for my horrific results. sleep early. be more sociable/less antisocial. earn more money. get a tuition job.

HAPPY 2009!=D

reflections of the week:
if you have ever thought of studying accounting or be an accountant in future. u will regret in future. seriously. gd pay yes. but u will go blind from the computer screen in ur face for almost the whole day and bore urself with numbers that frustrate u when sums dont tally.
i'm so glad my 3 days of data entry are over. i almost died-ed-ED.

but pay's gd.
Butttt 3 days of numbers and decimal points is enough!enough to make me never want to do it again.
train rides in the mornings are embarassing. my head just go round like a merry-go-round and i can stand and sleep through my journey and my knee does this weird movement that makes a sudden jerk. aiyah. it's just embarassing.

back to job searching again...and yeah. i want to kick that person ass who didnt get back to me.