2009

I thank God for family. For mum who is always supportive of what I’m doing.for worrying about my meals.for feeding me with many food.for always asking if I have enough to spend.for calling me at night in studio to ask how I;m doing.for staying up waiting at night till I step into the house.for cooking dinner every night.for waking me up every morning.For sis who always pushes me on. Help me in anyway that she can. Gives me opinions and ideas. for studying with me. for always asking what I’m doing. for tolerating with my bad moods and my nonsense.
For friends who tease suan encourage have fun with whine with. For being great company all these years. For great times together. For whom I can go crazy with.cheers to our lao lian friendships.





Resolutions for 2010

- Work harder. Be more diligent.
- Eat healthily. No more macs at technoedge. Walk in to smell fries.not eat fries.no sundae mcflurry and even cone.
- Work more efficiently so I can slp more normally.
- Spend more time at home. Get out of studio if possible.
- Wake up everyday feeling happy. Not moody
- Vent anger on myself. Not on mum or sis.
- Be less fussy about things.
- Learn to be contented with little things in life.
- Not be late for lectures anymore.
- Be thrifty.
- And lastly: be mindful of God’s presence and purpose in everything that happens before me. Let him lead me through 2010.

Have a great 2010 everyone!=D

I realised that i have high expectations for many random things in life but never for my academics.

This year, i'm gg to change.

You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future. God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know.

HOT i must say.

sj and shinee

sexyhot.

christmas is coming.
Another new year.
Time for new year resolutions.
Next time.

recently so many of my mum's friends have said this whenever they see me with my mum

" pang le hor"
or
" put on weight already"

brrr. so tired of listening to this. i noe i'm fat now.



I SHALL START MY DAILY RUNNING TMR!no more couch potato!

Extremely satisfied with my purchase today!

gt it for $60 dollars. usual price was $162!

suntec level 3 if u are in need of one too.

bye to my old and dirty 5 years old sports shoe!

food for thought

cuban pork and ham sandwich.

chicago red velvet cake.

choc stout.

loveslovesloves.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

RED VELVET CAKE HERE I COME=D

happyhappyhappy=D

i swear there's something seriously wrong with my hormones now. either it's at full blast now or it's just being reallllllly reallly naughty.
It needs some caning ( not literally) or discipline.
PIMPLES please SHOOOOO away. OMG.
i hate yall. go farfarfarfar away and disappear.

We are petite! loll

i ate a cornetto today. happy but sinfully guilty.

Did you know. An average American model is 5 ft 9 and above. That equates to about 1.79m . THAT'S FREAKING TALL man!

ANTM season 13
new requirement: All models to be 5ft7 and below. 5 ft7 is about 1.74.
That in Asian countries and here spore is considered to be extremely tall for a girl already.
And these models in season 13 range from about shortest 5ft 3 to 5ft7
they are called petite models in the modelling industry there.
5ft3= 1.62m??still considered an average height here.

See the huge difference in heights between western and asian countries!
PETITE WE ARE!

this boy is freaking cute. awwww..esp all his scratching nose parts. hahhaa.

I think many people think it's crazy to sign up for a marathon,pay a crazy price which u can spend on other more useful things and subject oneself to 42.195km of torture.which is a crazy run of 105.4 rounds around the track. well, i did it, along side with 17000 other rounders out there who were probably as crazy as me.


I had always wanted to accomplish a full marathon ever since i started having the thoughts of running a marathon. maybe initially because i thought that the sports singlet was rather cool. and then it became an urge to challenge myself and also for the awesome finisher's tee. i wouldnt say i love running as much as i used to due to pure laziness. but I had just wanted the feeling of satisfaction from achieving something that was humanely tough which was tougher than i expected.

the first 20 was all gd. plus the fact that i walked almost half of the forst 20k. but to think of it. it's either u conserve ur energy for the last 20+ k or wear urself out for the first k. it doesnt really matter. cos ultimately u cannot finish the full marathon w/o some walking unless u are fullt prepared and trained or u are one of those extremely pro and competitive runners out there. my aim was just to complete the race in a comfortable time and i did it in 7 hours 4 mins. which was acceptable and close to my expectations considering the only running i did in the past 5 months was a 2.4k jog ard the track. lazy ass.

The race was good. good weather execpt for the scorching sun at 11plus that totally burnt my shoulders which is in pain now. :\ but otherwise i just thought that more deep heat could be provided. it was in scarcity( hahaha. econns.) almost everyone was in need of it but the first aid stations ran out of them very quickly and imgaine those runners at the back with muscles pain adn still have 10+ k before the finish line. just thought it was sth important that they should take note of. supporters were rather hyped up but i just hoped that dont say things like": run, dont walk." but instead" keep going"or jusy simply jiayou and other more encouraging lines. one of the supporters along the course was even more ridiculous to say:" speed up!" rolllllls eyes.

One of the runners wrote something on his bib that was attached to the back of his top that said, " Architecture makes the world HAPPY"... i was happy to see that too. his HAPPy was really in caps. see think feel passion??
and there was one that said:" I came for the finisher's tee. what about you?"
..hahahaha. samasama.
another one i remembered was" my grandma made me run this" coool grandma.

AND the L plate guy.

it was his first marathon. and he completed in the end.rmbed seeing him at padang after the race.

to think abt it. i'm rather pleased with my achievements. 10k, 21k and full marathon completed before 20. should i run again next year...? maybe yes maybe not.

Accomplishment of 2009:

42.185 k is no joke. huge jump from 21. it was basically walking at least half of the distance. though i tried my best to briskwalk.

my legs are reallly lacticified. omgggg.

but oh wells, i gt my shirt!=D

what's up next?!

wth. i just realised i gained almost 5 kg since school started.


nobody shall tempt me with gd food for december ok.

and i shall start exercising.


5kggggggg!=((((((

Since I have so much time in the world now and almostt nothing on my hands, i’m gg to put the photos on my com into gd use. And probably bring u through the life of an archi sem1 student. Which practically ruined a hell of out me. but strangely, I dunno what other course will make me love doing so much. Even for the amount of macs consumed( u all wouldn’t want to know how much sundaes, fries, MACS BIG BREAKFAST and SAUSAGE MCMUFFINS I ate) no wonder my arms are giganormous now. I swear they increased almost twice the size. Okk. And Let me continue.and how badly my face is screwed by pimple breakouts. How badly my arteries are choked by trans fats (un)saturated fats. How much spare tyre I collected. How crazy I have become with just 1 sem of hanging around with very much insane and astonishingly high ppl. The unclean unhealthy dirty air and environment which irritatingly has no aircon on weekends and at night. And it’s really disgusting to work in there when there’s no aircon! The zooomg amount of money I spent. Like zomgggggg. Brokebrokebroke.

I’m surviving. I hope I will!

Ok. so this was how sem 1 started. the diy pinhole camera that had all of us rushing to all the kodak, fujifilm shops just to print our negatives. which failed terribly. horrifying start to year1 mans. but anyways, we were given afew themes to choose on and to take a photo of it to represent the theme. ur photo had to tell a story. my theme was " Paper" nd this was my second photo taken. a rather literal representation to the word. bcos I seriously was sooooo stuck then to think of any more brillant ideas. but i kinda like this photos. the mixture of colours came out quite beautifully.

Then we had to do a transformation using a photocopying machine.and ahhhemmmm* ps. but for that crit i think it was this transformation that saved me. hahhaaa. that crit to think abt it was the most horrible crit ever when my mind went blank in front of the tutors.

Then we had to do some model to explore spaces. using clay. mine turned out realllllllly terrible. it was so pottery looking. and nonetheless like some urinal or toiletbowl lookalike. it was just ugly.

And because it was so cmi. a redo was needed. which is common n nosurprise in aki. The 2nd clay model turned out better. Then, after clay. it was acrylic. acrylic wasnt fun at all. esp the gluing part. superglue ate my skin of mt fingers liek nobody's business. and I was super slack with acrylic cos mine just kept failing accompainied with zero ideas. only during the redoing week then did my ideas came. and finally sth decent that came up. and i kinda like it. hahahaa.the wonders of the machine cutter at the workshop.

After acrylic was cardboard week. which the photo cannot be uploaded due to whatever problem blogger has with it. then followed by the use of charcoal to represent shadows through ur cardboard model. i like the contrast that the charcoal gives.

Design sem2 first assignment. my dogkennel look alike paper/cardboard model. giganormously huge. and rather embarrassing.sad to say.

Next was weeks of hell with satay stucks and strings and the brick. our stick structure had to support a brick. and satay sticks and arches were exceeeedingly irritating cos they keep getting on my nerves by breaking. imagine doing one arch and then when u are on ur 2nd one, ur first arch breaks. and this continues several times. with a looming deadline.

and so i went to crit with an ultra CUI model cos my strings were like all over the place in 3 different colours. which needed a redo for portfolio. and this redid model looked a thousand times better.

Besides our deisgn module,there was our spatial and visual module which i enjoyed the most i think although it was hard to juggle between it and deisgn initially. Our first assignment was the legendary lines.lolll.

and then some clothees peg assignment at axonometrics which was no joke. it took away our slp.what to say.


and i almost forgot abt this assignment. I kind of like how this turned out. except that my pencil looked strange and fake.hhahaha.this was no joke as welll.

But the worse of all was thissss! maria botta house!one section of the house took me about 2-3 hours. and 3 days for the whole thing. crazinesssss.but after the whole thing. u will just have this sense of ultra satisfaction cos u completed it. just like that.



Then we had to practise sketching. which i enjoyed very much. esp with 6B pencil which was nice to use.

and then photography which was ultra funness. cos it was one of the easiest and slacker assignments. and hhahaa! u dunno how much i love my ant photo. the ant is cute.i think.


30 5 min sketched. which i took alot more than the 5 min for each sketch hahha. and this one is the first and probably the nicest out of the 30.



and this clothes hanger is probably one of the most irritating thing that bugged me throughout the whole sem. PF shit project. like reallly #%$#!! so glad i'm done with it. shoooos away and bye blothes hanger. i'm totally not interested how much tension and compression u are experiencing and neither do i want to find out the interal members of the trusses that u represent. and i'm so glad u are out of my life.

this is the story of my aki sem1.

THE END and ciao!

little things that make me happy. =)

crap! headache and brainblock.
pf GG.
cannot do. cannot memorize.
wahwahwahwahwahhhhh. howwww!



i want slppppp.
pf stinks

pfispffffffffft

it's 3 days to my first paper in uni and i'm not doing very well at all. PF on monday will probably kill me but i'm determined to pass it. i just need to pass it! it's probably one of those paper that i have zero confidence and ultimate dread for. firstly , this paper is a totally math and physics paper which i suck at. and secondly, i have absolute dislike to unpredictable questions which i havent seen or tried before and i'll be stuck.

it's like there's a whole spectrum of questions they can ask. and all i need to do is to REALLY understand what i am doing and apply the same formulas over and over again. ppl say u dun need to ask WHY. but just APPLY. still, u need to know when to apply what right. which i am confused most of the time.


GRAH. am grateful to my friends who i have bugged constantly due to my terrible knowledge of stress,strain,bending moment, compression, tension, UDL, shear, etc etc. though i am still uncertain if i really understood everything. which i dont think i have


but i'll PRESS on. till mon.whoosh!


jiayous friends!=D

I lay my life down at Your feet
Cause You're the only one I need
I turn to You and You are always there
In troubled times it's You I seek
I put You first that's all I need
I humble all I am all to You

You're the only one that I could live for
You are always, always there
Every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You will never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

You are the Way the Truth and the Life
We live by faith and not by sight for You
We're living all for You

One way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

i just had to post this. my craze for shinee is back!

STRESS AH!



nt feeling optmistic at all.

GRAHH!

my final model after days of redoing. cant wait for exams to be over. seriously.

this is rather zomg.am motivated to start hitting my black n white keys!

is what we having been busy with....

am going to be crazily busy for the next few days. thanks to sticks, strings and masking tapes. and definitely the wonderful almighty GEK essay....

wahhhhwahhhwahhhhhh/////////

sometimes maybe giving up on some things makes me a happier person. like how i gave up on my pf tut halfway throught the night cos i was just too tired and azy to continue to think about all the moments, shear and bending moments and rack my brains over how i should plus, minus or mulitply them. and tada. cant be bothered about PF for now.

and now, 10am on hot saturday morning. i realised my to-do list is alrdy piling. i have to :
1) take 3 photos of spaces in natures
2) sketch the images and
3) edit them on photoshop which i count as one to-do although no.1,2& 3 are counted as one assignment
4) return lib books the lib since it's due today
5) design work(which i havent thought of any idea yet)
6) GEK essay
7) PF project part 4
8) AR ppt and erm. brainstorm.

i'll probably chiong design tmr. wad a last min worker. cos i'm rather lazy to go down to studio today after running around trying to take some decent photographs and go to the lib. will be too tired to do so.


and i just feel like chilling. and slow down my pace for this week. life's not all about work right.
=D


ciao

am freaking irritated with PF.
pisses me off.

every now and then i look at my current work and the first assignment i did and wonder if i have been putting enough effort. last time i dun think i did.but now i think i am.or at least improving. but again,sometimes, the work that comes out just doesnt really click. but i guess i'm progressing. maybe at a slower rate. sometimes u just feel quite lost and confused by just looking ard. cos some ppl are just miles ahead. and u dunno if u are at the right pace or they are just too far ahead of us.

but i guess at the end of the day, it'll be okay if i just keep thinking harder and trying harder.
keep thinking.

AND
it's just year one right.
there's still 4 more years. let there be progress=D

rachel is missing her friends. and many things and activities that she cant wait to do.


let dec come quickly pleasssssse!=(

yesterday during our 5 hoours zommmg long lecture. something really amusing happened.
we were having this lecture which involved this huge amount a 53gsm paper which feels like tracing paper to me.and we have draw plans on it. and there were abt 20 plus plans to draw. every scan took us abt 10 mins. and so imagine the huge mess of paper under my seat. considering the fact that i just stuffed the drawn ones repeatedly under my seat.

and sooooo. the person beside me saw my paper under his seat and took it up for me. following, i took it and threw it under my seat again!without even bending down. and it landed at the exact same spot where the person had orginally picked it up from( which was under his seat) lol.

i thought it was funny and i laughed to myself while murmuring something along the lines of " ah.forget it. it went back again."

and i have no idea why. my lecturer called out.cant really rmb. except that the first thing he said was " yes?!" ( with his usual giganormous eyes)

"the girl in the black shirt." ( which was me)lol.
i was like huh?was i so loud. i wasnt even talking to anybody except to myself.but it was such a silent murmur. ok maybe he saw me laughing. lol. i was laughing to myself lah.

and he went on to ask me questions aboiut wad he just said. i wasnt exactly awake during the lecture so i couldnt answer his secnod question. and after hints from my friends beside. i got the answers.

"thank god u have friends."

lol.lol.lol.lol.lol.lol.

It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop.

Confucius, Chinese philosopher & reformer (551 BC - 479 BC)

am feeling increasingly displeased with myself of late.and that probaby explains my lousy mood these days. lagging behind work such as wonderful pf which i am miles behind. and simply my lack of discipline with keeping up with the workload.which is spening more time on useless stuff than to use them efficiently such as reading up. and definitely my speed of doing work. i have no idea why but it seems like time isnt enough for the stuff on my hands now. okay. i noe that applies to everyone and maybe i'm just being too uptight and stressed out currently. just feeling abit less optimistic these days. let's hope it will get better! yeah it will be. it's kind of weird, i dun want any more work. like essays-.-///. but on the other hand.. i'm looking forward to the new workshop. workshop and pf are 2 opposite ends. grrr to pf.


ok.let's get back to work.

Ok. my biological clock is awfully warped. sleeping hours are 9-2. and then at 3 will i then wake up and get started. if i happened to not do anything, waha. except a crazy hottempered me in the morning. which victimises my mum and sis cos i vent it all out on them>.<. ok. this is damn bad of me and hence my sis suggest i attend anger managemnet class. make it sound so serious. i just feel pissed at myself if i sleep too much and not get anything done!

ok. so last night.erm no. this morning. i managed to craft oout half or my AR essay. just half. hopefully i can finish the next half tonight. AR ar AR ar....sounds cute. hahahaaa.

and so today will be start of studio again.and i'll be in my new studio group. wahwahwah. i'm too used to my current studio grp alrdy
=((((

crap. recess week just passed like that.
what a break.
piling slp debt.
and...
still have an essay undone.
and..
it's sunday tmr.


wants more slp.

the current workload is making me zomgomg. no time no time. and end up making me walk the shortcut and just be lazy. u cant afford to be lazy! but when it comes to dealing with ( insufficient) time. which isnt endless and doesnt stand still, u have no choice!

i hate essays and pf. pf drive ppl nuts. shant bother abt it for now.


period. should go continue on my drawings and get them scanned asap. what a life rachel!


ciao!

i feel normal today.
slp alot. 15hours in fact. went out for lunch! walked around in a shopping centre. went to the library. stepped into another shopping centre. had dinner with studio mates. watched a movie. and basically not doing any work at ALL!

how nice. it's has been long since i have done the above.

time to eat normally. slp normally. work normally. play normally. slack normally.

and be a normal person.


how nice!=D





"architects arent crazy. they choose to be. "
quoted by my lecturer( TS!) i kinda enjoy his lectures!

"25 Buildings Every Man Should Know" GQ's March issue includes an illustrated "Guide to the Most Important and Beautiful Structures in America."
1. Oak Alley Plantation (Gilbert Joseph Pile)
2. University of Virginia (Thomas Jefferson)
3. The Rookery (Daniel Burnham and John Root)
4. Gamble House (Charles & Henry Greene)
5. Robie House (Frank Lloyd Wright)
6. First Church of Christ Scientist (Bernard Maybeck)
7. Schindler House (Rudolph Schindler)
8. Lovell Health House (Richard Neutra)
9. Philadelphia Saving Fund Society (George Howe & William Lescaze)
10. Gropius House (Walter Gropius)
11. Eames House (Charles & Ray Eames)
12. Fallingwater (Frank Lloyd Wright)
13. Farnsworth House (Ludwig Mies Van Der Rohe)
14. Lever House (SOM)
15. Eden Roc Hotel (Morris Lapidus)
16. Case Study House #22 (Pierre Koenig)
17. TWA Terminal (Eero Saarinen)
18. Carpenter Center for the Visual Arts (Le Corbusier)
19. Salk Institute (Louis Kahn)
20. Whitney Museum of American Art (Marcel Breuer)
21. Douglas House (Richard Meier)
22. Thorncrown Chapel (Fay Jones)
23. Pulitzer Foundation for the Arts (Tadao Ando)
24. Walt Disney Concert Hall (Frank Gehry)
25. Seattle Public Library (Rem Koolhaas & Joshua Ramus)



am postign here for kiv-ing. will check them up when i have the time. and finally blogger is acting normally. will post some images next time.

ciao!

SURVIVED 2 DAYS WITHOUT SLEEP. wow!am now suffering from seriuos sleep debt resulting in my dozing off in trains and buses and missing stops. like what just happened. both on mrt and the bus. and i almost fell asleep while standing waiting for the train. lol.


rest day today! should mug korean now.

archi's really making me broke.wahwahwah.and i have a a 7-day time table. hahahaa. but it has been rather fun. especially having crazy and high studio ppl ard u.i;m left with 16 graphics! and it's 5pm sunday afternoon now after a nice bath after after almost spending the last 30 hours in studio. whee. i should slack a while b4 getting started on my sketches.

6am. and i have just completed my 3 images. WOW.ok. i actually pretty satisfied and glad to have done so.BUT there's till 16 graphics to draw tmr. week 2 but it feels like i have been in sch for months. and timetable for us tmr will be from 11 -9pm. wowwowwow.



this kind of summarises my life halfway through sem 1 week 2. ok. i shld go slp.
like how gd night=gd morning. kind of true huh.

Time check
Thursday: 2-9pm in studio
Friday( the day where I actually didn’t have any lectures on!): 11am – 9pm
Saturday: 3pm to Sunday 7am
Sunday: 4pm to 7pm
Total no. of hours clocked in studio: 36 hours

Expenditure
Fujifilm films:$3.50+ $7 + $2+ $10 = $22.50
Printing A2 sized photos: $12
Materials: $5~
Spendings for assignment 1: $39.50


Just for assignment 1 week 1, I’m superbly broke and totally chui. But i love drafting pens. Wheee. And I’m DONE for now. Tmr after 6pm the whole cycle starts again.
First crit session tmr! guaguagua.

stupid blogger doesnt allow me to upload images now. and i very much so want to share my timetable with u all! next time then.


i stumbled upon this on fb. and it's rather interesting.

You know you're an architecture student when...
...you know the janitors by name.


...your roommates say "good morning," and you reply "good night."


...you carry a toothbrush in your backpack.


...someone asks you for your phone number and you give them the studios.


...you start paying rent for your desk space in studio.


...You total up 3 meals of the day to your breakfast.


...'Red Bull' is you favorite drink.


...all of the Christmas gifts you give are wrapped in trace.


...you ask Santa Clause for architecture supplies.


...you ask Santa Clause for a sleeping bag.


...after all of your expenses, you can't afford to pay attention


...you have 3 or more cups of double shot coffee espressos in one night


...you hear the same song on the radio 3 or more times in one night.


... You know the different taste between UHU and Pritt glue


... You can stay alive without sunlight, communicate with people nor having foods but you would commit suicide if the plotter doesn't plot your work out


...the only sleep you get is in your G. E. classes.


...construction workers are already working.


...You've lost your house key and u realized week later


...you sleep more than 16 hrs at weekends


...u dance madly at 3 am though u aren't drunk


...you note smt with yr drafting pen or yoken


... You are an expert and Photoshop, illustrator and auto cad
but u don't know how to use MS excel



...you've got 2 subjects / day but u got to study it whole day


...you spend more time in studio than in your own bed.


...your parents are complaining that you're not having enough fun.


...you only leave studio to buy supplies.


...you haven't taken a shower in a week.


...you see showering as a waste of time.


...you've ever dreamt about your models.


...upon hearing 'supermodel', you think of a nicely crafted-foam core model.


...your parents have more of a social life than you.


...your 14-year-old brother has more of a social life than you.


...you consider using broccoli for your models.


...you enjoy hanging out at 'Home and Garden Fair'.


...you know all the 24-hour food places in the area.



...your friends get more sleep in one night than you do in one week.



...the streetlights turn off.


..You consider 3AM an early night.


...when you are out at 3AM, and people knows where you're at.


...everything you eat comes in single serving baggies.



...the idea of a 24 hour 'Kinko's' make's perfect sense


...smoking sounds appealing.


...you're out on Friday nights in studio.



...the only building on campus with its lights on is your studios'.


...you say "It's only midnight- I have plenty of time to finish."



...you confuse sunrise with sunset.



...you ask what time it is, then ask "AM or PM?"



...you strangle your roommate because she said she stayed up late studying.



...your Friday night is 68 hours long.


...you know how much a cubic foot of concrete weighs (150lbs).


...you slice your finger, and the first thing you think of is if you'll be able to finish your model.


...you understand why architects have glasses and white hair.


...You call some great architects as if they are you friends.
err... Frank... Tadao.


...you swear there are only 120 people at USC.


...you know all of these are true, no exaggerations.


...you can listen to all your CD's in one night.


...certain songs remind you of studio.


...you change the style of music to country coz u r fed up with POP


...Sister's favorite brand names are Prada DNKY etc... But yours are
Mastex, Staedtler, pentel, rotring


...you dare not to have a gf/bf coz no one can accept for what u are


...you can conceptually compose the food on your plate.


...you think the 'Weekender' happens every weekend.


...upon hearing 'Weekends' you think of sleep.


...the 'Shop Cafe' closes when you arrive, and reopens before you leave studio.


...you have to wait for breakfast shops to open.


...you go to the food shop, and order the "usual", and they understand.


...you use architecture tools to eat.

...you only buy groceries once a month.


...you wake up to go to school and you're already there.


...you start wearing all black.


...you have no life, and admit it.


...you start to critique a radio selection's selection of songs.


...you bring your friends to studio to keep you company.


...you refer to outside studio as the "Real World."


..."going out to eat" is at the 'Shop Cafe'.


...going on a vacation involves going to 'Flax' or 'Pearl'.


...you confuse today and tomorrow.


...you tell time by when other people leave studio.


...you can write a 6-page term paper by procrastinating.


...you hear "Didn't you wear that yesterday?' followed by "and the day before that?"


...you roommate files a Missing Person Report.


...you count the number of days (not hours) you've been awake.


...you think days are 48 hours long.



...you go to the store to buy a six-pack of 'Red Bull'.


..."Homecoming" happens once a term.


...on Halloween, you dress like your instructors.


...on Halloween you trick-or-treat in studio to get arch supplies or 'Red Bull.'


..."respect", "coolness', and "hatred" are all based on how much sleep you get, or lack of.


...you see your own picture on a milk carton.


...you start using words your instructor uses.

...your bed has collected a layer of dust on it.



...concept of time is not forward, but a countdown from the time a project is due ("What time is it?""4 hours 'till").


...you contemplate suicide 3 times a day.


...you contemplate dropping your major 3 times a day.


...you have a tent pitched in studio, but still don't go to sleep.



...doing models all night long excites you.



...you know the people in the studio better then your roommates



...Drimmels are a lifelong investment, if you can keep the parts.



...Gesso is pointless.



...The roof, Atkinson Hall, at 4 AM -- nothing like it.



...X-acto knives can be dangerous... as we all know or will find out.



...Beer pyramids AND Red Bull pyramids are some of our late-night late projects.



...Elmer's glue doesn't dry quick -- not even close.



...They know the phrase "Always done, never done" all too well and wish the professors would stop saying it



...They can always have more construction lines.



...They know the number and price of their favorite item in the snack machine downstairs, as well as every other item and all the drinks in the other two machines.



...And if you have been drunk while in the studio working on a project, join the club.



...they believe they should be paid just for having the major



...you drink more in studio than you do when you're out



...you have sent messages on aim to another jackass architecture student in the same room

as you are



...you think "X-Acto Blade Throwing" is a sport.



...you have 3 or more 'Mountain Dews' in one night



...you spend more time in studio than with your wife.



..."scoring" involves an X-Acto blade



...you don't find out who wins the Presidential Election until Thanksgiving Break, if you get one at all.



...a break consists of moving your car.



...you've memorized you favorite vending machine combination item (B6).



...you use your T-square or straight edge as a baseball bat.



....the day has 2 sunrises.



....you test which glue will cause your model to burn faster.



....when you tell people you major in "architorture"



...U can't draw without listening to music!



...when people tell you that they like walking around with you because you see things know one else does.



...when you don't understand how someone doesn't strategize their way through traffic (or everything else in life).



...when someone says "icon" and you think of Louis I. Kahn.



...when someone says "eye candy" and you think of gratuitous details on a building.



...when you use words like "gratuitous".



...when you have to use spellchecker to see if you spelled "gratuitous" right.



... When you're not sure what day of the week it is



... When you have slept straight through a day and into the next day after a final review



... When lack of sleep makes you feel and act as if you are high



... When any flat surface is seen as a place to take a nap (underneath the tables in the computer room (that's where it is the warmest), in hallways, on drafting boards



... When a relationship with an upperclassman seems like a good idea because they might be able to help you on your project



... When a relationship with an underclassman seems like a good idea because their final review is before yours and therefore, they can help you produce once they are finished



... When the books that you read consist primarily of photographs and not so much of words



... When you have to ask your fellow architects to give you wake up calls



... When you have three or more alarm clocks in your room.



... When cutting yourself with an x-acto seems like a good idea because it will give you an excuse for not having finished your work



... When you go to studio and spend more time socializing than doing work



... When you have big enough balls to tell a critique that they are wrong



... When everyone in studio hates you because you are the one who plays their music too loudly



... When after playing your music too loudly the same people who hated you start to take interest in your music



... When you have developed an addiction to buying new albums, because you have gotten sick of all your old ones



... When trying to decide what album to play you find an album you haven't listened to a while and it ends up being the perfect choice.



... When professors for courses outside of the architecture school are lenient once they are aware you are an architecture student.



... When you tell someone in another school that you are architecture major and they automatically assume you have no social life



... When you have a non architect friend who wants to tag along to architecture parties because they know that architects have the best parties



... When you are the only sober person standing outside of the hot truck on a Friday/ Saturday night



... When you have a sign taped to your back that says do not disturb unless you are ordering food or handing out free blowjobs

... If it were possible to bartar sexual favors for production help, you would seriously consider pulling tricks



... You have given a final presentation with your fly open



... You try to do things to make your friend laugh while he is presenting



... You have layed flat out on the floor and gone to sleep during a review



... You have snored during a review



... When you skip classes because you have too much work to do



... When writing a paper seems impossible and completely foreign to you



... When you attempt to do a media project in lieu of a paper



... When you have an inexplicable mark running off your page because you fell asleep while drafting



... When you are able to fall asleep underneath a running shower head and you are completely sober



... When you wonder what it would be like to be in another major and the idea of going

Out three or more nights a week is unfathomable



... When you participate in a mad dash to the campus cafe at closing time for free coffee



.....you lose your eyesight and you gain backache and neck ache



...when people stop you in hallways and say "hey, I like your beard" and you realize that you haven't shaved in three projects



...when you start measuring all time segments in terms of "projects



...when you refer to your computer as your "significant other"



...when you have nicknames for all your tools



...when you talk to all your tools like they're "real people" and use their nicknames



...when taking "5" is going and making coffee, taking "a break" is running to the store to get more coffee beans and for every 6 hours of sleep you miss, you add a scoop to every pot of coffee you make



...when a triple shot espresso just doesn't have enough "kick"



...when you try to talk to another person and realize that you've invented your own language and nobody else understands you



...when Pink Floyd lyrics actually make sense



...when a 102 degree fever or strep throat is to you no excuse to miss a crit.




OK. HAHA. I realised the list was rather long when i scrolled down to copy and paste it here. let me slowly read it.

Most of us have always have the thought that the working world was a greener pasture while in school dealing with neverending stress. However, after my few months of temp working stint, I just have to tell secondary school kids when i hear them complaining about sch and sayign t hat they would rather work that the working world isn’t as great as what we always have envisioned. YES to income coming in and we are given the freedom to spend what we want.BUT NO more slacking times during lectures. and just hanging around doing nothing and sleeping during classes. we cannot do those while working. and yes, many times i just struggle to keep my eyes open while staring at the computer screen at work.

But I guess, the whole debate comes down to exams and homework, project deadlines and trying to get our grades up. Depending on each individual jobscope and responsibilities, it’s almost like schwork vs work and grades vs work performance or even report book vs rise in salary, promotion etcetc. Especially when u are part of the top management or directors office role.


So which one do u prefer? For now, sch is the choice for me. Almost 9 months ago, it was definitely work. Cos exams were totally a pain in all our asses. Hahaha.





Anyway, I was reading my sis’s ODJ (Our daily journey with God) and I just wanted to share this reading which I felt was rather relevant.

Taken from book of Ecclesiastes 12


“3In the day when the keepers of the house shall tremble, and the strong men shall bow themselves, and the grinders cease because they are few, and those that look out of the windows be darkened,
One day their legs will start to tremble, their shoulders will stoop, their teeth will stop grinding and their eyes will see dimly.

4And the doors shall be shut in the streets, when the sound of the grinding is low, and he shall rise up at the voice of the bird, and all the daughters of musick shall be brought low
One day, their energy level will wane.We will no longer see the familiar bounce in their steps and the gusto with which they undertook a task.

Opportunities to honor our parents are for a limited time only. If your parents are still living, spend time with them, treasure them and honor them today.

When i said it was relevant, it was mainly because i feel that most of us are spending time with friends as compared to our parents. When considering nights-out with friends, maybe we should consider including nights-in( if there is such a word) or rather just be home more often for dinners. some personal opinions here.


CIAO!

I(s)

my list of I(s)

i had my hair chopped off today. so it's now short.
i had thai belachan fried rice today. delicious.who wants next time i bring u there to eat. i think it's really good.
i had red tea, milk tea and coffee today. my body is extremely caffeinated now.hahaha.
i wanna attend NDP next year! i said i wanted to last year. but i missed out all the dates of distribution. =( who wants to go next year?!!!
i havent exercised for more than a week already. cos rousao has been tooo busy to find time to do our running tgt. and so i feel extremely unhealthy and unfit now.
i am craving for steamboat plus bbq. anyone wants to go seoul garden?
i am feeling ultra-ly bored now. borrrrrinnnnnnnggg.

In life, not everything goes the way we want it to be. just accept it. I cannot even make out what's on my mind now. I think it's just preoccupied with tooo many things. am i that busy?


Thai belachan fried rice tmr=D
Food always makes me happy.

I have no idea why but i;m feeling kind of tired these days. had wanted to join rag initially. but i think it'd be better for me to rest and recuperate while my mind and body get prepared for my busy sem ahead. 14 projects in a year is no joke. i hope my brain juices start the churning when 10 aug arrives.


btw, i sat at macs for a good 30 mins today people watching. It's a rather good time to just stare blankly at what's happening around you, how people behave and maybe try to guess what they are thinking. There was a small kindergarten boy with his mother and he's pampered i must say. but duh. the mum looks rather well-off with a ipod touch and another mobile she has, and her ears plugged on to a mp3 player. and on the kindergarten boy's hand was an apple ipod. he was watching a movie cos i happened to see the 20th century thing appearing like in every beginning of most videos. that's besides the point i wanna say. I'm just quite wowed by how fortunate kids are these days. Unlike me who take weeks and months just to decide whether or not to purchase a phone. and now currently an mp3. and he's at most 6yrsold and i'm like 3 times his age. but then again, aiya, he gt rich parents.


it's 2 weeks to start of sch. my excitement has alrdy died off in fact. I'm feeling rather burned out now. and its strange cos i didnt felt so while i was working. and now, with nth on my hands, i am. 2 weeks to enrich myself and get lots of rest i guess. get ur maximum rest too ppl! it's gg to be a long way before our next break!


CIAO!

YIJUN'S JOINING ME FOR THE RUN!=D HOOOLA. I'M EXHILARATED, JUBILANT & ECSTATIC. WHEEEEEEEEEEE

anyone's up for the challenge?!!count urself in!!

i am almost desperately looking for someone to run stan chart marathon with me. wahhhwahhh. someone please run it with me.=(( i have not run such a long dist before. but i really think it's all our willpower and perseverance that we spur us on to complete the race.

let's take this as a challenge. it's a personal achievement u know! SOOOO get ur phones ready and sms me that u want to join me!


don't i sound extremely desperate!

I am officially unemployed though i should alrdy have been but i guess it was a great time working in my co. nice colleagues nice ppl that i meet them and i was very happy to recieve a gift from them and the pen s damn coool.it looks very elegant.and i dont think i will bear to put it in my pencil box and let it be ruined my forever untidy and dirty pencil cases. and i cant bear to use the set of towel tt L gave. been a really gd time working with u!


i'm looking forward to sch. woah rachel! " PATS ON MY BACK" lol. at least for now and i hope i will persevere through archi-torture.get past the cruel year 1 first. hahaha. not the most wonderful and pleasing profession of all but still, i believe i will enjoy what i will be doing.


cheers peeps. i'll be free on some days for the next 2 weeks before sch officially starts. feel free to jio me out. hahahah!

I bring an offering of worship to my King

No one on earth deserves the praises that I sing

Jesus may You receive the honor that You're due

O Lord I bring an offering to You

I bring an offering to You

sometimes, being employed just a weeks away from the start of sch isnt the best thing to do. i realised the no. of leaves i have to take at work. when i have just taken a week off. and so the best decision i have made is to end work asap. which is this week. i hope everything goes on fine.




btw, a vid here for you. watch it!

I express great interest in the Language Preparation Programme as I have always been greatly intrigued and fascinated by the different cultures around the world and particularly the Korean culture of late. I am especially enthusiastic to be able to visit South Korea to explore their lifestyle, traditions, food, architecture, education and their buzzing entertainment scene. I have always been interested in taking up the Korean language as I believe that by only doing so will I be able to enhance my learning and gain a better, deeper and more profound understanding of the Korean culture. Hence, I am delighted and very keen in participating in the LPP and taking up the Korean language.

Being an Asian, I am interested in finding out more about our fellow Asians lifestyle, culture and traditions. The World Wide Web has been a great place for us to gain more knowledge. However, this cannot be compared to being able to personally experience and be in direct exposure of their cultures. I believe that the Student Exchange Programme is a great opportunity for me to encounter new and fresh experiences through the interaction with the people there. It will allow me a platform to not only be presented with a different culture, but also share my knowledge of Singaporeans' culture to the people there.

Having participated an Overseas Community Involvement Programme in Bintan in my junior college years, the experience of being in a foreign land and getting used to a different lifestyle has been truly amazing and enriching. Hence, I am definitely keen in being exposed to a brand new culture again. These experiences will allow us to appreciate many little blessings in our lives as well as gaining many valuable lessons from our friends we meet there.


Pretty amazingly, my application for LLP to learn korean turned out to be successful. i'm excited to be able to visit korea in year 2.but i;m getting stressed now knowing that i will need to attend korean language lessons cos i'm not exactly a language person. in fact, i think i suck at my languages. bit trying to put myself down here. but, i know my strengths and weaknesses. oh dear. i hope everything will turn out fine. i would better gp indulge in more korean dramas and try to grasp some of the language instead of constant;y looking at the cute guys in them. LOL.


ok. but yippees and yays. i gt korean. and miao gt german! thank God for ur blessings!=D

All the cheem technical terms of the study loan from the office of financial aid is driving me nuts.
what a hasssle.

a shanghai building that recently collapsed.i'm quite disturbed at the way this building collapsed. it's hard to imagine that the whole row of building tilted in that way from an angle of 90 degrees and then gradually decreasing till it reached the ground. with the fact the top thirteen stories being still completely intact. in most cases, the whole building would have been broken into a huge mesh of dust and debris( like the video i attached below) once it's halfway down to the ground.
Strange.any physics genius who care to explain?

These lyrics just clicked suddenly.



A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time


the unpredictability of life and the cruelty of someone just being taken away.
or very simply to put it, facing with the fact of death.

i think my current life is getting increasingly boring. i even have to plan ahead of what i should do on my saturdays. cos i'm practically have nth to do on sat. so this weekend. my morning is alrdy settled at mskee's place.lunch with mum. and then i plan to just get some book from the lib or the lappie out to the hse to coffee bean to waste my time away. if anyone have nth to do. u are extremely invited to pop by and join me. oh god. i'm such a despo.




ok anyway,

friends.
it's friday again. that's fast.

anway ms chai, u bought icecream at udders! i want tooo!

Life's getting rather mundane these days, with just waking up at 6.30 and reaching no earlier 12 hours later. But, i'm feeling rather satisfied or maybe just thankful my working environment is rather comfortable. no stress or anything. i'm just getting fatter each day with my ass stuck to my chair the whole day.

Pc show was great. No. i didnt earn alot but overall it was very enjoyable. I believe the funNEST part of the whole experience was chatting to really goofy customers. mothers..fathers and aunties and uncles who were too funny to be true.and many children who were too shy to speak to me! These ppl really made time more passable. esp when u just lose the motivation to sell ur product anymore. I think i will do it again. although the money's nt as easy as it seems. But with ur friends around. it's funfunfun!

Today, i witnessed a really true reflection of ugly human nature. it was like omg!i thought it was hilarious. cos i havent seen anyone like this before. ok. hilarious. the greed portrayed was just erm. unexpected and urm. almost disgusting. or just plain unbelievable. wad to say. so funny yet so ugly. haiyo auntie auntie why like that!!auntie bu yao zhe yang ma!

i really think i should get my brain working.like reading up....oh so lazyyy.

i dont understand why people need to smoke. or why they are constantly craving for their cigarette. it's strange. cos the smell stinks.


ok. besides that, i'm extremely delighted now with the comfort of staring at the photo of my idols. like baron heechul m.jun

yay! thanks girls!

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Goin' nowhere, goin' nowhere

Their tears are fillin' up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles

It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sits and listen, sits and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
.

the wonder of adam's singing!it actually touches ppl. as least for this song. i dun follow american idol.but when i heard this during the final. loveitloveit.

I just had to post this! it isnt my first time watching this but even after so many times. i;m still amused by him! lOL.

i AM a fan of kim heechul.HAHAHAHAHAHA. and he's very cuteeeee.

KIM HEE CHUL AGAIN!

Today i realise...

Goalkeepers need to drink lots of milk! They need huge amounts of calcium cos they always fall on the ground trying to prevent the ball from getting into the net. and they do it with great force.

i'm very tempted to get this phone.but the price's rather high now=( shall wait for the price to decrease and in the meantime look ard.

swine swine go away

Thanks yijun for ur message.

miao, weining, ivy, qiyuan and the many who tried to cheer me up.

I'm be happy and forward- looking. Won't allow my neagtive thoughts to cloud my head. i will get rid of my emo mood.

THANKS very much. really.

RP loves u!=D

Sometimes or many times, I think it’s still very hard to accept the saying of ” don’t worry, God has his plans for us”. I really think the uncertainly is constantly bugging me and it’s so hard to just brush off these worries. Faith. Faith. Faith. Trust. Trust .Trust in the Lord for he is Good. This saying is so hard to be applied in real life. Probably because u still am unable to totally shrug this heavy load of worries. Or I just cant let these issues get off me. At least work now has helped to occupy me from thinking too much. Nights are the times when these thoughts just swim into my head.

Anw, my colleague was mentioning that I should have more confidence in myself. But really, having the confidence wont help now when it is over. I cant say I’m confident cos I’m definitely not. But if I am confident I wont say I am confident too. That’s me. I probably say it went well. Nth else. It’s hard to be confident. I'm not a genius. This time, gahhh. No confidence. Cos it went badly…i don’t want to be perceived as a person who isn’t confedent in the things she does. But it’s a case by case issue really.

I want an answer. At least some closure and comfirmation of what is presented to me. I’ll will definitely accept it. If not what to do!

But one thing for sure I noe is that, everything will turn out fine in the end. Maybe not the way I want. Maybe better or worse. But it will be fine! Time will see.

Ah dui. So emo.
jiayou to me and to the many out there!be optimistic!=D

shucks. i feel very lousy....grrrrrrrrr.


it's the thought that i wont be able to study what i want. call me pessimistic. but i just cant help thinking abt it.

Gdbye archi. Life’s a cold and hard reality. Just accept it I guess.or make urself accept it.

I’m screwed up my apt test.and made myself sound or look silly,damn.

But don’t worry. I’m feeling alright. I mean there’s a lot ppl out there who are really better and who deserves a place more than I do.

I’ll probably be a nurse or a scientist.
Actually,I wanna call God and ask him where I will end up in

Super junior -SORRY SORRY

ahhh!Heechul really cracks me up. he just looks alwaysvery fuuny in a cute way though. i like heechul!=DDDD





As for my test tmr, God give me the clarity of mind. i want this so badlyy.

Chris Tomlin - How Can I Keep From Singing
There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love?
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs
You giveI can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again

I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

i finally got the emails and letters from nus nursing and archi. but it seems like i need to have some art pieces or designs for archi. fan nao fan nao.

i'm really looking forward to uni life. to study and learn new things. though i noe that when the time comes...i'll be complaining how tough study life is. as for now, i really miss sch life. miss endless chats with friends and just plain slacking ard.booooo.

we never are satisfied with the way things are.

Well... may nus reply me soon.

Ciaoooooooo.

Psalm 100
Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.
For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations


Good news!I passed my grade 8 practical!!!whoohooo. it was 6 marks to Merit but actually to get 6 more marks isnt that easy too. but i'm really really happy and thankful. praise god for all his blessings!Hallelujah!!!


HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY=DDD

The workaholic is down with sore throat and a stuffy nose but thank god she's recovering alrdy. Having said that, ahha! i have started on my new job alrdy although it was just 2 days after my previous job. this time's a full day one which is gd. i'm realllly bored at home. it's sunday, woke up late for church, it's raining heavily and i'm stuck at home with mth to do. boringboring.

i hope i get an email from nus soon...=(

I'M DONE with brightsparks applications!!!=DDDDD

I have been thinking alot lately. using my brain whenever i can. all this for the sake for the archi selection test. the first qn definitely requires alot of thinking in order to make out/construct sth abstract. and not show how shallow i am.

the fact is i'm a very shallow person.
stressssss.boohoooo.
I really want this! and i will be damn sad if i'm rejected.
bwahaboohooo.

In music, abstraction refers to the abandonment of tonality. Atonal music has no key signature, and lacking an externally imposed standard.

now, it seems like music is simpler to understand than arts. abstract???what theeeeeee.

The city of Sophronia is made up of two half-cities. In one there is the great roller coaster with its steep humps, the carousel with its chain spokes, the Ferris wheel of spinning cages, the death-ride with crouching motorcyclists, the big top with the clump of trapezes hanging in the middle. The other half-city is of stone and marble and cement, with the bank, the factories, the palaces, the slaughterhouse, the school, and all the rest.

One of the half-cities is permanent, the other is temporary, and when the period of its sojourn is over, they uproot it, dismantle it, and take it off, transplanting it to the vacant lots of another half-city.

And so every year the day comes when the workmen remove the marble pediments, lower the stone walls, the cement pylons, take down the Ministry, the monument, the docks, the petroleum refinery, the hospital, load them on trailers, to follow from stand to stand their annual itinerary.

Here remains the half-Sophronia of the shooting-galleries and the carousels, the shout suspended from the cart of the headlong roller coaster, and it begins to count the months, the days it must wait before the caravan returns and a complete life can begin again.


I'm stunned.lost.. can someone explain this?

I'm finally done with uni applications. Finally. it has been bothering me for the whole week since the deadline is so near yet so far. so better to get it over and done with. As for my choices. it still remains the same. nus archi, nursing , sci and fass. As for ntu, i decided to put adm first. portfolio portfolio.. must i really do it. sighs. i have no idea how to cos it's alien to me.but i want visual communications. at least more than bio sci. remaining choices: bio sci and communication studies.


I think i might just end up with sci in both ntu and nus. but i do really want archiiiii=(((

Would be kept busy by Fa stuff. photocopy all the documents. haha. same stuff always. i do this almost every year. but have to go all the way down to buona vista just to submit them=(

in conclusion, application is troublesome.

OK. BYE!

What nonsense service is he providing??

There was this extremely rude taxi driver today who gt so impatient while waiting for his customer who was a visitor at my company. and it was only 5 mins i think. He got out of his cab, walked into the reception and scolded me for taking so long. He probably thought i was the one gg to take his cab. but whatver it is, he is damn freaking impolite and rude. he was like " still not coming, i wait very long already!!" in a coffeeshop-uncle tone.i regretted not calling back to the taxi co to complain about it. and his customer so happens to be an ang moh. HAHA.see if he still dare to open his fat mouth.hurhur.



I'm baking chocolate banana muffins tmr..=DD

Ok. as nosey as i am ( as miao always say..but whatever!!haha) , i browsed through many ppl blogs regarding how they felt about their results. there was one who gt straight As and kept complaining abt that one B she gt.

isnt she irritating?i actually feel like shutting her up.
god... she has 6 dists and she's complaining!

I was thinking actually...WHY are we always unsatisfied?? . ren bi ren , qi si ren...we humans cannot stop complaining.

obviously there will be ppl who's smarter. and ppl who arent that smart. everyone has sth they are gd at. and i'm guilty to say that when i loooked at the nj's website, i was rather depressed considering the no. of As ppl had and the pathetic few i had. but at last, i decided not to engage in this depressing activity of mine and just be happy with what i got.

and yeah, to all who are upset abt their results. A levels is just a tiny little part of our lives. and the experience we went through in our 2 years of jc is more than just the cert we have. ac taught me alot, first would be brushing up my lousy engliiishhh to a extent that i found myself speaking chi in a weird accent at one point of time. ac made me realise what a lousy christian i was with many really devoted and faithful christians around in school. their Faith for God was really strong. i'm nt even halfway there now. but i really liked chapel in ac. esp those by teachers. ac gave me great friends. wonderful teachers who truly spent extra hours in ensuring we gt the grades we were deserving. of course there were tough times amidst my 2 years, i'm still glad i gt to go through it.

Life is full of ups and downs. God place us in this situation for a certain reason. One day, we will realise his reasons for doing so. Life's never fair. It is always unfair. some ppl just always seems to get the gd stuff and sometimes some of us always end up with sth nt as gd. I noe it cos it always happen. Partly because it seems to be always happening for me for the past one year or so and SO i'm rather immuned to injustice already.or rather, i'm used to it. But i guess it's just a matter of us embracing this fact and overcoming it by believing that he wants the best for us and that he will bring us somewhere he wants us too.

"For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11

So cheer up peeps. it's not the end of the world. We still have a long road ahead. =DD Our certs may just a tiny part of a conversation 30 years down the road.

pianoooo exam tmr!

OK. I am so glad that my results are back and i dun have to worry abt them anymore. YEAh. but what comes nxt is deciding the courses i want and i havent really looked through the stuff in that stupid freaking heavy paper bag that they gave us. ANDD..ntu didnt put their handbk into that paperbag of mine. and there are some courses in there which i want to look at. arghh.

Ytd was scary. deep down in my heart i knew that i wouldnt be gg up stage. bcos of my math which i screwed up. and obviously gp. the wait in the hall was crazy. my body was how hot can. like i was having a fever. and they took freaking long to get the ppl on stage.
but anyway, i was very relieved at the forst look at my slip.it wasnt that bad. except for my gp though which isnt gd ... or maybe it was becos of my own expectation(i always have low expectations) AND i gt a B for math which was unexpected. i thought it would be like a C or D. and for that... i am reallyreally thankful. Praise God!


i'll think of uni courses after my piano exam. Oh baby.. it's over on tues!!!=DDDD

AHHHHHHH. I NEED TO SCREAM OUT LOUD NOW. MY HEART IS SCREAMING. I"M SO FREAKINNNNNNNGG SCARED FOR TMR. I HATE THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO REPORT AT 2.30 BUT ONLY GET MY RESULTS AT 3.30. THAT ONE HOUR WILL BE SO TORMENTING AND NERVE-WRECKING. I DUN EXPECT GOOD GRADES. I WILL BE SATISFIED AS LONG IT IS SATISFACTORY. OKKK. I CANT SLEEP AND I AM SOSOSOSOOS TERRIFIED FOR THAT STUPID MOMENT. I DUN WANT IT TO COME ANY TIME SOOON. OH MYYYYYYYYY.

I dunno which BLUE album this song was in. but i havent heard it before until 2 weeks ago. and yeah. i think it's damn good. the original was sung by elton john. but with BLUE it's definitely better with more groove to it.

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word (BLUE feat ELTON JOHN)





What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I got to go to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.

It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

What do I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.

It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Yeh. Sorry
What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word.


AND. recently i have become a fan of SHINEE. but they make me feel so old. sighs.so depressing to no longer be young. imagine more than half of the members being younger than me. i'm greatly saddened bcos taemin is soooo cute.and his dance is so gd and sexy. but he's 16 only.why are ppl these days so talented???!!! okay. onew is rather cute too cos he just keeps SMILING. like seriously i always see him smiling and smiling. he basically puts his smile on all the time on screen. =DDD haha. anddd i just feel very happy looking at their MVs cos they can dance amazingly well as a group.











OKAY. tt's all. enjoy SHINEE.
u will love them. hahaha!

ciao!

it's time to blog!

I just realised today that tmr's founder's day. I do really miss school. What's more interesting is that facebookhas this event called wear acs over the weekend thread bcos i basicallywear my collegiates every weekend for piano or church. imagine the no.of wearable tops i havein my wardrobe.most of them are untouchables.but i do try to wear some of them just to please my mum sometimes.

Counting down to results days. I dun expect anything actually. but i do want to get into uni. just let me enter uni. I cant believe i actually let my mum talked me into applying for nursing. actually it's a rather gd deal. u get to study in the prestigious medicine sch. though not the exact sch as the future doctors but u do at least get be near these ppl. coool. i cant believe i'm intrigued by the thought of it. But then again, it will not be my first choice definitely. it could be one of my other choices perhaps. Art,design and media is also extremely appealing. Unfortunately, portfolios and your personal art works are needed. and i have no idea how to do them. apart from these, i try to flip through ntu and nus handbooks in hope of my eyes catching sth interesting.

it's friday=D ciao

Many things i want to say. soo point form

1) it's actuallyless than 3 weeks to results days. i'm feeling my nerves. and not the say the dread at the thought of it

2) i actually dreamt of my results. which was speechlessly horrible.

3)the photocopier at my company has been at odds with me lately. it breaks down like nobody business. even the phone died on me today, though i managed to revive it at last.

4)i have roughly decided which course i want as first choice. but the remaining choices are still in consideration.

5) my mum is extremely fascinated with healthcare jobs. shekept bringing up nursing. which i don't have any violent objections but not much interest either. hahaha.

6)i have thinking for the past few days that do results really matter that much? after PSLE we will think it's actually nth. same for O level. A levels?? "aiya, can get into uni can le la" Soo. the bottom point is.. i not too sure either. Just leave it to God.


ok. that's alloff to watch boys before flowers=D

Matsumoto jun's new drama is out! and it's fabulous!=DD

watch Myu no Anyo Papa ni Ageru @ mysoju.com

GRAH. i'm actually rather exhausted now but since the usual 1-2am bedtime is getting into me, i'm still awake infront of my com.plus waking up today at 8.30amwhich is far earlier than my usual time. but woohoo. i managed persevering with more than an hour of piano practice. wowwow.

on the side note. since i'm watching american idol now.. . i have no idea why Tatiana got through bcos i'm extremely pissed and irritated with her overemotional personality and how she cries and make those squeaky,gross, disgusting,annoying and exaggerating noises. that been said...go check out youtube and see her strange behaviour.what are these judges thinking..! i would rather Jamar getting in. it just so saddening whenever they bring up danny's story. and why not jamar tgt with danny both?

sth interesting happened today. the singpost person whom i call everyday commented
"You do this everyday right,MsRachel?" hahaha! that's right. i call the same no. at ard the same time and say the exact similar sentence every afternoon at work. maybe tmr, if she answers i'll ask for her name.

As of now...I'm still extremely bloated after dinner with syl at vivo. and i saw one of my colleagues there. how weird. tuas and vivo are miles away and we end up seeing each other. and msgao pangsehhhed. and so she's going to treat us nxt time.wahahahaha..!!! that's all!i;m soglad it's fri tmr! dress down day finally. sick of wearing balck pants everyday.


CIAO!=D

My piano teacher said sth ytd which i thought was quite funny.
"Please take care of your Mozart"

lol. okay that's all.
after 10march i'm going to rejoice.
but for now. stressssss.

i guess we always fear taking the first step

i feel accomplished today.=D it's just quite embarassing when my throat gets all choked and cackled up when i have to speak and it isnt the first time that has happened. ohnoo.

anyway, it had been a great week. visiting + catching up+ goodies and SLEEPING. my favourite hobby now is probably sleeping. haha!okay.

finally, work on monday. Thank God for the wonderful week!

ciao!

sometimes it's best to think before shooting words off.
breathe cool down.
and show remorse.
best way to salvage an ugly situation.

but i suppose the smartest move is to control my temper.

and things will turn better=DDD

Niceeee song!

thank god it's friday. last day of work and chinese new year to look forward too=D work has been rather fun cos i got to tok to more ppl and i can now recognise many of them by their names. hahaha! everyday is just " (XXXXXX)( my company name) Good Afternoon." " just a moment please"...etcetc. i'm so looking forward to cny plus all the goodies. it's quite funny that i kept telling my mum not to buy soo many goodies this year. but we still end up having too much. too much for a family of 3. hope that realtives who come eat more of them.

anyway, ytd i waited a whole 30 minutes for the freaking bus to arrive and ended up being a litle late for work. but the strange thing is i always reach the bus stop at the same time. so that particular bus driver must be slacker. SLACKER!booos!! so today i was at the busstop and i recalled one of my church friend saying how she gt to believe in god. " God if you are God turn the light of the water flask or boiler RED( i think which means when the water boil it will turn form yellow to red). and it turned RED very soon or immediately. hhahaa! so today i did the same thing" God, if you are God let my 257 come quickly. " and in less a min. 257 came . " hMMMM. sth to ponder on....

then to think about it. i thought i heard in church that you shouldnt say anything "if" when requesting sth from God. cos god can do ANYTHING.so to me, it's quite confusing...some things to me are always quite puzzling. i always have questions for everything. like how when i study chem. there's always me asking why this and why that. and my sis always say i shld just accept things as how they are. sometimes i feel that i think too much. not in the good sense though. unneccessary questioning that doesnt do anything gd to me.

And Anyway... i am stilll very unsure whet i wanna study. too many uncertainties especially issues abt whether i will enjoy what i study or whether that will guranteee me a job in the future. sucks.or whether i can get into course that i would like. and i wouldnt want my results out any time soon. i cant bear the thought of going through the wait in the hall with all the speeches and ppl going up stage with brillant results and sitting down there waiting for ages just for that lousy result slip.


as of now, i just cant wait for cny goodies and the week off next week. no work!!!!=DDDDD

ciao!