another day of food overload!!

i'm certainly amused by how long the 11pm taiwan longjuanfeng will last.the storyline is seriously beating around deceptiongreedmurderkidnapshospitals and the cycle continues.LOL. And the story never ends because the villians never die. i just look forward to the end of this draggy plot.bring an end to those freaking evil characters.


gg to slp early now.it's nt even midnight yet! Waking up early for a swim tmr morning then it's eating and shopping again. tt's why i NEED to exercise.

Goodnight!=)

i'm feeling like a cow.a pregnant cow to be more apt. HAHA. God knows how many kgs i have put on from all the food that went down into my blubberlicious tummy in a matter a few days. but ohhhgoooodyfoooood i love you=)

it's time to exercise and detox.

roller coaster day. fortunately it ended well!

MERRY XMAS! Reminded of the what christmas is all about.


All about you Jesus=)

glad i improved. except design which excatly what that matters eventually oh well. got to buck that up next sem!

thankful grateful. Thank you Lord for all the blessings=)

A round up of sem1

Design:


History:telokayermethodistchurch


Digital Design:moviehouse




this sums up sem1.mostly just finalsubmissions. gottoopenmymindupforsem2.

beinginthiscoursestillfeelslikedrowninginmurkywaters.souncertain.dontknowwhatisexpecteddontknowwhatisacceptable.justgottokeepsearching.breakfree.

ohgod.i;m so hungry now i wish there's a plate of phad thai in front of me now i can devour thw hole plate of it. thai food cravings. lots of cravings even though i can feel my immense fatness now.

btw, i have been pretty inactive these days. physically and socially. sorry if i had minimized any contact with the world lately. i'll update u guys when i see u all=)

btw, i have learnt how to swim=). learning freestyle now and it's freaking tiring.


oh the other hand, i;m feeling a hell lot better these days=( cheers!

I'm back!

Wasnt feeling the best or rather in any mood to talk about my life cos I was feeling pretty down over some stuff some time back. didnt have the mood for anything. days when i went fml allthetime. I do not really like opening up to ppl about my feelings. always preferred to lock them up within myself. probably to many im making a hooha out of sth so minor. it's stupid i noe.But now i'm on the road to recovery. Trying to be optimistic over the gloomy days although I know I may be exaggerating little trivial things to what it may seem to some ppl.and being too hard on myself over sth not worth.sth so minor. If you know what I'm talking about yes no whatever. you can ask me. Sometimes, I find myself being such a shallow freak but just to conquer this barrier is almost impossible. Till now . Sweeping it off my mind hasnt been possible.

alright. let's not talk about it anymore. just being really optimistic now.just need a great deal of time patience and definitely trust and faith.

oh the other hand. life has been pretty good these days. lots of slp. lots of drama. lots of tv. lots of many things. i find myself being increasingly domestic these days. helping some simple household chores and mopping the floor and cooking!

Cooking has been almost a an everyday thing these days. I even created a new blog such to blog about my cooking. Strong satisfaction =D. Hands are getting dry from all the washing though.

anyway. check out my food blog: eumshik.wordpress.com

lovely holidays. wonderful weather. awesome laidbacklife.

till next time.=)

fmlfmlfmlfmlfml

cast all your anxieties on him
For he cares for u

Need to push some stuff to the far back of my head nw.
Gettung too affected by the thought of it.Prioritiespriorities.mug nw.worry later.

i love it when when my mum comes home with lots of food.
there's meijimilk,cereal,bars,chocs,yogurt,chips,biscuits yadayadayadaaaa...

=DD so happiiiiiiii
watch as the glutton mouth down all of them one by one. HOHO

my skin's being a pest lately seriously. outbreaks after outbreaks.

btw, this brightened up my day! apart from all the encouragements from my awesome pengyoumen! thankew guys!


=))
when exams are over. i'm gg to have a good well deserved break. cant wait.

thingsthathauntyou

OK. i'm feeling alot better now.

so yesterday my crit went really badly. i got shot for this that almost everything. boring simple. just four pavilions with a stairs.6 weeks and ONLY this. blahblahblah. yeah. it was THAT bad. well the thing which always happens is. whenever i think of my final design. definitely it wasnt a five min decision. it went through manymany changes and improvements( maybe) over the course of weeks. you change your idea your design here and there and eventually something for final crit..the thing is...when i'm satisfied with what i have done. reality always and never fail to hit me that its always lacking. it's severely lacking in many aspects.

and yes i do agree i am lacking. sometimes i wonder even if i'm suited in this course. you may like what you are doing but you are just not good at it. you work like shit. suffer many sleepless nights just to come up with ideas drawings and models to only expect nth but uncertainty. uncertainty which always equals to disappointments. and nth good evers result you just doubt.

I always question myself after each crit why i hadnt do this do that. why my designs always fall flat. and each time i see that yes probably something could have been done to improve which i always never see. or maybe choose to ignore subconsciously. maybe there's just too many things to consider that you place emphasis on sth else which tutors maybe fail to see.

Yesterday I did feel a little down not because of bad comments by tutors but more because i could see myself being behind my peers.in other words, i felt my design was just a plain boring little project that was in the midst of many interesting projects.

and i questioned myself why was mine so utterly shitty. now when you just look at your work and just feel like crushing your model. cos u are reminded how lousy it is. like wtf did i come out with sth like this for final crit?and yes in the span of 6 weeks. sth like this ought to be shot down.

sad that i didnt see this earlier.

but yeah.after crit yesterday. i learnt some lessons. and now..i think i got the answer. hopefully=)


still, i believe design is arbitrary. and sometimes ppl just like questioning why is it this angle, this shape. this length... cos you want it that way isnt it.
and form and aesthetics always takes precedence over any thing else. even though sometimes it may not be the emphasis of the project.
just some opinions of mine =)

Badbad day. Badbad crit.

Just got to get it over.

Doubtingquestioningconvincing.

Monday- consultation
Tues-drawmakemodel
Wed-Design Submission
Thurs- Crime presentation
Fri- Crime submission, Design Crit.



HOHOHO. wad a week ahead.

damndamntired.
eyesdamndamnpain.

Can u see what you will be doing in 10 years time?


you can't. so just take joy what you are doing now.



Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

i like this quote by Adrian Tan.
Doesn't it make a hell lot of sense?



i lied.i slacked for another day. wheeeeeee. but i feeel HAPPY=D

jiayous friends as we chiong through the last few weeks of sch!=)

Taking a break from work tonight!=D

yao shen bing le!

it is quite a wonder how hormones work. on sunday i was on the verge of stress breakdown thinking about all the deadlines and brooding about them the whole day.

and TADA.

on monday, a whole colony of pimples popped out.
ARGH.
going to see the doctor tomorrow before things gets nasty like the last time.


and now. i noe....

got to manage my stress well.

shoopimpleshoo.

who you are inside is what makes you a star=)

bad weekend. bad morning. i'll try to make it better!comeon.


anyway, i'm just very stressed with all the deadlines. my inefficiency,lack of discipline and my sleepiness. got to get up and get all those freaking work done NOW. damn.

moooooody.=(

and so...

yesterday was a brillant day.no work no work!we( my sis and i) went for lunch at maxwell food centre which i always have wanted to go ty their chicken rice after smelling the fragrance last year while leaving the hawker centre. and of course go back there for their awesome and famous fish noodle again!

and YAY! we satisfied our cravings before going for the 20 under 45 exhibition.

HAHA!

We walked ALOT ytd! from maxwell, to telokayer via cantonment rd then to people's park for koi. no joke. but it was fun! yay!love these shots! i want a find good food walk and take photos day again!=)

HAPPY SIS!

back to piling amount of work=(

sometimes after crit i really wonder if i'm in the right course.
i really enjoy what i'm doing. but i'm seriously lacking in many aspects


sighs.
but life's a learning journey.
got to suck up to failures and move on.


=))

taking things easy

why stress myself over studies?

ANDitgoesonandon
Iwannacelebrateandlivemylife
onrepeat=)

I swam in a 1.8m deep pool today.


YAYYAY! i think i'm getting it. so happpy!


i'll conquer my fear of water then before the age 30 it's time to do something exciting!=DD 10 more years dude. i'm just looking really ahead.




I read this person's blog about how she dislike swearing. but sometimes. swearing really does releases stress or anger within you. sometimes you just feel so fustrated and helpless and when you say that word you just feel an instant shiokness. BUT yes i understand. it doesnt solve my problem in anyway. I have been swearing alot ALOT lately. much to the annoyance of my sister. sometimes i swear and break off into laughter. i'm mad.

BUT alright, i should try to curb this bad habit that i picked up lately.=) i'll TRY!yes mspek???HAHHAA

i feel dumb presenting my idea. it's so dumb and stupid i cant stand it.



SIGHS.SIAN.

GOd speak to me. speak to me. i need to SALVAGE MY WORK!







I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO!
Gotta let go!
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO!
Baby, let's go!


5moreweeks!

pimples shoooo. Shit. I can sense an impending outbreak soon. NOOOOOOO.


still stuck. No ideas.=(

mentalblock. i wished i could stop confusing myself.

I think sometimes circumstances in life drives u to the limit.
Like surviving without sleep.
You wont think you can stay awake that long.but too many times. you do.

not just archi but same for every student.





i'm finally done with my model. timecheck. 12.30 pm
i have crit @ 2. shower and off i go!






Not implying anything with this song. just happened to hear this yesterday and liked it=)



CIAO

you rack your brains to think of an idea.
then you doze off.
when you wake up, ur brain just auto start thinking again.
the same thing and where you paused before dozing off.
and the cycle repeats.

i'm amused. HAHAHA.

SIGHS.WHYSOMUCHWORK.SIGHS x#(*&)(*#&$(#*$ times. =(((

You are an illuminating anchor
Of leagues to infinite number
Of crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the ebb and flows of hunger
You're dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You're the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Intertwining like a ring around the finger, of a girl
I'm just a singer, you're the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other

There are people who love you, and who are ready to give you much needed support. There are even more, - way more than you can possibly imagine, people who CAN love you if you give them a chance. Make 'share joy, half the sorrow' your motto for today.


=))

God created you, each of us were born differently.
Each of us is unique.

Hence, just be yourself=)




Living everyday is a bonus.

Dont think what u dont have. Be glad with with wad you have.
Contentment.

Sometimes when you emo about all kinds of stuff.u forget all the wonderful things God has blessed u with. So stop emoing and get a life.

HAHA. Something someone said that triggered my thoughts and hence, POP came this post.


Loves the sounds of the night=D

and finally a weekend of deserved rest. Feeling free and happy=D 

I will...
catch up on glee and gg.
Go for a run
go for swimming lessons( yes i'm finally taking swimming lessons.haha! Sounds really funny n embarassing when i'm almost 20 alrdy.but......whocares?i just wanna get this skill right.
catchup on crimefiction readings(if i ever get round to doing it)
Do my readings!


Awesome weekend!!



=DDD

it's winter! and i'm the snake. shedding skin

ohgod. my face is peeling-((((

essayessayihateyou.rahh

HELLO PANDA.i mean pandas.
eat up all the bamboo.devour them ALL of them
so i wont need to do my sustainability assignment.

ok.i'm bored.

ock currypuff craving
FATDIE?

ock currypuff craving
FATDIE?

this is for my pengyoumen out there! stay strong!=D

You must be more "fierce" when reading an article, you must have the mentality that "im going to tear this into shreads" kind of thing
-ivy


yesivyiwill!

oh yes. twothousandword essay. bless me.









When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

heydude.itwasnotwoweeksholidayforus.ignorantdudethat'snotuptothatleveltoseethebeautyinit.wadever. at the moment he said that i swear my heart accelerated and i could feel the anger inside all of us.i just went HUH.

heh. forget it!

but we are glad it's over! it's the process not the product though i like it as much too.

byebamboo!

Being a peace loving person aint exactly the best option.
However, neither do i like conflicts.

i realise how ignorant sometimes i get when conflicts arise. i shut off and stone and let the exchange of argements between others.

conflicts are tiring. some are tired of speaking. some are tired to repeat their stand. some are just tired of arguments tt lead nowhere.



chill

the busy week is heading towards a busier week ahead.


exciting?yes and no.

does not want to hear any money-talk.


Earn, save and spend. tt's how life is.

when you arent good at something, you just got to put in more effort.try harder, spend a LOT more time figuring it out. and sometimes in the end you never figure them out.
you put in so much effort and time. and you get sick of it.
you get bored.
then you get tired.
and then the headaches start intruding your brain.


oh God, cant you make this world a little less painful.
a little happier from the already blessed and happy earth.


HAHA. ramblings.
almost 5am now. writing essay and having a headache( again!)


In this country, no matter how difficult things are, you somehow get around doing it. or forced to ?! hahaa no choice. you get what i mean.




can i have a hot waffle with hot melting chocolate?
no. sis says FATDIE.no choc waffles for you!HAHA.

FATDIE is a nice phrase/word.

i am taking a long saturday and sunday break from sch=D feeling goood!

revit is a nuisance. have never been good with computer softwares O.o really thankful for my friends for help with it. gdweekendhoseh!

noucantsleep.ugottofinishyourreadings.


AHHHHHHHH.damnshagged.

sometimes i look at others and wonder why they are giving themselves the most unnecessary stress over work. and i'll go " chill, just take things easy."


and i realise, i'm not practising what i speak.
i get worried over looming deadlines even when they arent near yet.


time to get rid of any unneeded anxiety. it's just work.


life is not just about work.
not mine.
not urs either.


Be not miserable about what may happen tomorrow. The same everlasting Father, who cares for you today, will care for you tomorrow.

had a better than expected crit=)

Still some stuff to settle b4 construction starts.let's slog it out! The time when girls become machoman has arrived. hhahaaaa.



ilovetaugeh.

DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMNYOUREADINGS.

dying from all the readings.

Taiwan-Danshui 2010=)


curse you readings. 3 hours on just one reading is pathetic. blame it on my powderful engrish and the level110-english articles.

2 down.3 more to go. let's take a break!


there's a kpop concert in singapore on the 23th october! i wanna gooooo.


Even on the darkest and toughest of all days,
remind yourself " All is well, all is well, all is well"

I love homecooked meals. i love my mum's cooking=D


there are some things that keeps you going. yay!

blessing in disguise.


I believe it's you God.

A good start this sem=)

just had a KFC chicken at 1am. wow calories wow. i can literally feel the oil in my stomach now. blame it on my lousy disgestive system.

on a side note, i really do have a strange and weird disgestive system. It doesnt disgest fishballs.

Sch has been great so far. somehow i like the fact that it keeps me busy everyday.
I like that a huge percentage of my time is devoted to sch.


=) maybe, that is just for now.


MY TIMETABLE

i just spent the past hour looking at amazing buildings and architecture by famous architects. HOW ON EARTH DID THEY COME UP WITH SUCH AWESOME DESIGNS SERIOUSLY.





and you wonder if u ever make it.

oh wells. that's why THEY ARE FAMOUS YOU SEE.

Song Lyrics & Words

If I were a butterfly, I'd thank you Lord for giving me wings
If I were a robin in a tree, I'd thank you Lord that I could sing
If I were a fish in the sea, I'd wiggle my tail and I'd giggle with glee
But I just thank you father for making me, me

For you gave me a heart and you gave me a smile
You gave me Jesus and you made me your child
And I just thank you Father for making me, me

If I were an elephant, I'd thank you Lord by raising my trunk
If I were a kangaroo, You know I'd hop right up to you
If I were an octopus, I'd thank you Lord for my fine looks
But I just thank you Father for making me, me

For you gave me a heart and you gave me a smile
You gave me Jesus and you made me your child
And I just thank you Father for making me, me

If I were a wiggly worm, I'd thank you Lord that I could squirm
If I were a fuzzy wuzzy bear, I'd thank you Lord for my fuzzy, wuzzy hair
If I were a crocodile, I'd thank you Lord for my great smile
But I just thank you Father for making me, me

For you gave me a heart and you gave me a smile
You gave me Jesus and you made me your child
And I just thank you Father for making me, me






I miss this song. =D

i actually do miss some of the exarchi peeps who are no longer in archi=(( i find sth missing w/o them.

life still goes on.




have been eating a whole lot of junk lately. it's time to get back a healthy lifestyle.

i'm so glad war at home finally ended.so tired of trying to keep my cool. Tired of reasoning. Tired of putting up with temper. Tired of the disagreements.

Why do humans even get angry because of something so trivial.

Well, let's forgive and forget and move forward.

9am in studio tmr.oh man.
Totally no drive for sch yet.get urself tgt!

I should really learn to speak up and not hide in a corner not saying a word.

I should try to open up and contribute in a discussion.


My mind keeps telling me i should. but I just find it hard to do so.



grow up. u cant remain like this forever.=\\\

this semester feels different.

bad temper these days. sighsss. got to change this bad habit.


packed. rearranged the furniture in my room and now i'm having a awful headache.

pizza hut lunch tmr! yayay!

Finally decided on my module.cheap and interesting( i hope!)

i cant stop watching this!
AWWW. i have new eyecandies in suju now!=)

Do you fear challenges?


i do,
i try to conquer them.
but sometimes in the end, i regret doing so.

guess i'm nt tt brave after all.

but one thing for sure.
God gives us the power!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEJIE!


i think i just flipped my body clock. grah. it's so unhealthy to be slping at close to 5 in the morning but my mind just doesnt want to rest even if i close my eyes at 2. i hate this. i need more slp.


chocolate truffles was awesome. weeee.
i need more sweet indulgences. it makes me happy.=)

ONE WEEK TO TAIWANNNN!

i'm starting to realise how much i actuaally dislike technology. Despite all the wonders comes all sorts of hassle n too fast a pace of life to catch up with. for eg. Autocad. Except for the sites where u catch up on dramas on movies just tt would be perfect.


i'm in love with my current life. Waking up @ 1pm everyday is goood. extremely shiok. But at night, i lie on my bed at 2am unable to go to slp. That probably explains my headaches.or maybe my wet hair.no migraines please dun befall upon me. Headaches r possibly the least painful but most undesirable pain felt.cos it stays for hours and hours.and has been with me for years.

I caught karate kid today.it was goooood. And whywhywhy is chopin such a fantastic composer??nocturne no20 in c#ninor is sososoooo goood. It pulls ppl's hearts though..but tt's why it's so awesome!

dear migraines please dont act up again.

hao fan ah!!

Talk about overprotection these days. how parents wouldnt want their child to be exposed to any risks or dangers. even minor ones. i'm not entirely keen on this mindset. shouldnt a child be allowed some sense and experience of how the world is like.

"Why would you want to do this. this isnt good. It's risky. What if this or that happens.No dont do it........"
(but of course that dosent apply to illegal actions.if not parents should definitely intervene.)

A child constantly under the protection and denial of any tough work will not grow up. she/he will always be in his/her bed of roses thinking the world is a sweet place. ok. maybe not. It's just the parents wishes to keep him out of any misfortunate situations which might happen. Keep the children under their wings and out of any harm. Good? Bad? HMM

some would want to experience similar things so common to some others. it's probably not considered " risky", so trivial in fact. just a nod " yeah. No problem i can do it. " final nod final decision. no comments no disagreements. chopchop. done.

A little biased towards a topic like this. Parents should just loosen up a little. With some limit though and it will be fine!

Stark contrast between the different generations.

A baby just started on his first steps. He fell.
The older generations frantically rushed forward with many " aiyos". More worried if he had injured himself.

The younger generation calmly gave words of encouragement" it's okay. Stand up and walk again".
Thumbs up!If you dont fall you never learn to walk!



SO MUMS AND DADS LETS CHILL A LITTLE.

WHO CANT RUN STANCHART 10K anymore? PLEASE GIVE ME THE NUMBER TAG. or sell it to me.

kamsahamida.

It's alright to fail because it makes u work harder. and when u look back, u realise how much u have grown from these failures and how you conquered them =)failures are nothing!

It's a little hard to give others encouragement when you arent the best person to give advice.

let's work hard!

Am contented with the life that God has given me.
It isnt happening nor wowwowwow. But at least to look forward to the next day is happy enough even though i'm not busy with anything.

I love my mundane and nua life.=D
Let it be as laidback as possible this remaining months. I love this feeling.

CHEERS!

enjoy ur holidays friends!

i wanna horse ride again!=(

korea has been very fun! BUTBUTBUT i just washed one of my contact lens down the sink! grahhhhhhh! clumsy hands. =(

kimchi land in abt 9 hours. =D

heading to the airport in 12 hours time. I AMMMM SOOOO EXCITED. to see korea and sis as well. 5 months alone doing work at night is quite miserable. and now i can kajiao her as much as possible when she is back.


excitingggg. cant wait to devour a bowl of bibimbap and lots of kimchi.



okays.except for getting all hyped up, i have nothing to do now. i shall go to the gym. getting back some discipline these days. good job!=DDD

Songs that always bring me back to the memories of certain periods of my life.



My pri sch days.One of the mvs i clearly rmb. reminds me of the saturdays at home when sis and i fight over the tv at home.they used to screen mtv every saturday mornings.or was it sundays? but weekends were the only times we had access to the tv when mum wasnt at home.cos we had a strict notv rule to adhere to then. And when mum wasnt at home it meant no work done basically! Hahaaaaa. weekends were fun.=)


and this. forever no.1 on mtv i rmb.madonna and the cowboys.



Voulez vous coucher avec mo
LADY MARMALADE. never bothered to figure out the lyrics. but i liked it alot then.=D


Secondary sch days

S.H.E


Olevels mugging days song when tancossin never fails to frustrate me.


ths song for A LEVELS. perfect mugging song.


BSB inconsolable was also on repeat mode for A levels.



i love old school. =D

looks like i'm taking a break from stan chart this year. cos noone wants to run!=( alright i should just go sign up as a volunteer and breathe the running spirit then.

2 more days=DDDD

another cui cap. And dear nus sent me the msg at 7:52am while i was in my dreamland. Only to be awaken by such cruel reality.

My mum has been very encouraging though. She's satisfied that i passed everything. Strange. or maybe i'm not used To her saying things like tt. Unlike her usual strictness.

I'm nt feeling anything. Maybe a little disappointed. Or i m just numbed by disappointments. not the first time anyway. Try harder tt time.

breakfast time.

the toothpaste adverts on tv are getting on my nerves.

They shld learn from gatsby. Takuya*winks*
HAHA.


Good job rachelpek for running ytd and gyming today!but the fats dun seem to disappearing.=( work harder!

DID some shopping today.=D and =( at the same time. more nice clothes less money.

gymed today! feels good tadadadadadada!

This was better than i expected. and it erased some of my biasness towards viczhou.
NICE!

5am. It has been long since I stayed up so late. Holidays are probably the only times u get to catch up on drama and sleep. But its either the first or the latter. one choice.

My eyes are feeling tired . But my mind's full of the drama I have just watched.

I shld go sleep nw.

what is ur comfort food?
mine? brownies=D
supermoistdarkultrachocolatelybitterlysweethocolate.

i'm having second thoughts about working. It just seems like having more sleep, time to read up more books and enrich myself and maybe pick up a skill would be far better off. And I really love just not doing anything and the liberty of doing things anytime u want. And time alone is the best thing ever. Call me an anti-social but seriously sometimes nth beats having a personal time and space on ur own.

2 weeks to korea. Cant wait.

haps is certainly not my kind of life . i like mine simple=D

standard chartered marathon. anyone?

headacheheadachelaomaobing.

the wonderful ATM machine that fulfil our 24/7 financial needs.
so wonderful that it ate up money too.


maybe it got hungry





sheesh. talk about the wonders of technology these days.

gives us more problems.guaguagua.

when were things ever easy.
even so, shouldnt we just try our best.


arghhhh. stop being so discouraging.


sometimes, i really wanna noe what goes on in the minds of humans.




sighs.my blog is becoming more like a ranting bin.

in need of a job.

happy mama's day mummy!

wasnt able to celebrate mama's day today due to exhibition.

and YES. it's DONE.



extremely broke. baking and portfolio burnt my pockets so badly=((
i am very sad over this.

i dislike the quietness of the night.

troubles troubles go away.come again another day.
pekcek.

sad life. sighs!

MOOD


ohplease.pleasecomeback.i need to get work done.


sighssssss.

anyeonghasaeyo KOREA nihao TAIWAn here i come!

HAHA.excitedddd!

but the pile of work still untouched is pretty depressing.
got to think of how to redo PAviLION.-.-
got to PHOTOSHOP photos. no easy task for photoshop noob.
got to do portfollliiiioooo.
got to bakkkkkeeeeeeee.okays. baking is only fun though.

all by 9thmay.


majorsian.

i need to escape to the north pole. why so hot here?!

have no motivation to redo my stuff.

and portfoliiioooo.



3rd june!!!

exams are out! waffles and icecream after that was awesome. it's the kind of food that makes liberation even sweeter. just like how it felt after submission weeks ago. the papers this time from the first to the last just got worse this time. first one was alright.wasnt gd but soso. then second one was kinda bad. the last one today was verybad. hahaa. but it's overrrr. holidays are hereeee!

the past few days was funny cos i kept bumping into gy whenever i'm out to mug. hahaaa. it always happen. we gt the mugging telepathy. bumped into her again this morning at macs. it was funny to listen to the conversations of the people around. like how the aunties beside me kept criticising the outfits of the actresses at the star awards. this one nt nice, shouldnt have worn sonething so revealing. that one wear until not nice also. and they weeennnnt on for approximately 15 mins. hhahaaa. was pretty amused by their conversation.


i'm thinking of getting a job at coffeebean. let's see how things work out.




















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UK PAVILLION at the Shanghai Expo 2010




AHHHhhhhh. this is awessssomeee. loveitloveit!=DD

Check this out:http://www.dezeen.com/2010/04/09/movie-uk-pavilion-at-shanghai-expo-2010-by-thomas-heatherwick/


one last paper!=D

there's no such thing as "i finished studying".
Or at least i always believed tt is so.

First paper tmr. no excitement.
i think the last time i actually felt excited was in pri sch. When i was happy doing all the models for math. all those challenging problems sums that maybe did excite me.now. Not anymore.

It's sad how education stresses everyone up. The competitiveness and everything.but yeah. I have given up or rather grown out of the competition looong ago. There's no need to compare.why bother whether u do better or worse than others? Do ur best and god will do the rest!

Gonna do some readings before gg to bed. Early night!=D

liulianxiaoxin?!sounds really weird.like labixiaoxin's brother. Fusing our national fruit with a cartoon character maybe? trampolines they named as metronome. I like the name. But ppl to bounce on the trampoline just to allow images to be screened is a little strange too.

Shanghai expo stuff out on the papers today and look at the crowd.!go there now and u get trampled on. reminds me of hmmm shant say it. Hahahaaaa. China's pavilion looks like a massive palace. I like the uk one!

have been enjoying too much good food lately.

i NEEEED to go for a run.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

wahhh. i feeeel stressed all of a sudden.
it's like when u study subject A ytd and have yet to complete all the lecture slides/notes blahblahblah. you think about the unread stuff for subject B and C.

And day 2 (today), u decide that you have to start on subject B and u okay. studystudystudy.and MAYBE complete a quarter of all to be studied. THEN you think about all the subject C( totally untouched) and subject A ( which you suddenly realise u havent really gotten much out of the mugging the day before.and the amount of work still left for you to do)

so actually u still got alot of mugging to be done for all 3 subjects.



oh manssss.

the only thing to look forward to is breakfast later.


hahaa. that jazz piece i just heard on internet radio sounds like that kind u hear during funeral. lol.

i wanna fast forward time. 29 april pleaseeee.

sausagemacmugfins&panicakes.LOL

I'M REALLLLLY BORED NOWWWW. =(((((((((
SIGHHSSSS.

okays.
just needed to rant.forgive me for all my whiny posts.

if u wanna study u should get off ur bed.
tt's not enough.
u should get out of your house.

sianahhhhh. it's scary to see everyone mugging so hard.akipeeps are hardworking. i should do the same. i wanna go SEP.i need to pull up my cap.

but still.damn siannn ah. okayyy. shall get back to my lecture slides.

jiayous everyone!=DD

muggingfail.sighhhhhhs.

a long break from all the mugging and you realise you just cant get into the mood of studying anymore.

tired. sleepy.

no. i should start studying.

damn hilarious!

HAHA.time to mug!!=.=

Craving for good food.

Good food includes mocha and cheesecake from coffeebean. yummymushroom soup from soupspoon.chippy's beerbattered fishnchips. hot waffles with icecream from coldrock. that awesome tiramisu from donna camela!good and black carrot cake!takoballs from ion orchard and the ramen and burger from the ramenshop at hollandv. ok. the list shall stop here. eat and errr. get fatttt!

i just deleted an angsty post and then deleted it and then thought abt it.this is a much more peaceful post.

i think the world's a much peaceful place if u just focus on what u are do and what you are going to do. and auto filter the stuff that we dont wanna know.


yes.an auto-filter is perfect.

or maybe a juicing machine. you get the juice and u throw all the pulp away.



i need to complain. but everything such things happens i'm reminded of the purpose in our lives. That should take the angst away. Not totally but gradually. slowly.





How apt.=)

major submissions over! chionged antm cycle14 last night. and stuck at the latest episode. hahaa. the bitch fights in them are major! and damn hilarious. the girls practically scream and roar into each other faces. damn funny to watch!


to catch the bitch fight. watch 5.53 onwards.

and ohmy. this one is goood.i love tyrabanks!


Okay. so today was a sleep-in day. how wonderful.=D woke up to eat my breakfast then went back to sleep till 3. niceeeee.

AND i should stop procastinating and finish up my monday-due ssd essays.i will finish them tonight!! damn essays to spoil my weekend. THEN, i should really get my lazy bum off to some running. 4 months without exercise is no good. no good.

AND , it's time to mugggg.-.-

AND seeya friends soon! sch's out veryvery soon!wheeeeee!

emailemails please stop coming. tonight is a GG night.=\\\\

Certain Individualism
“Anyone can put a smile on your face but it takes a special someone to put a smile in your heart…” -Tec* (the recipient but not the author)

There are certain individuals who come into our lives and we never quite figure out why but it all somehow makes sense. There are certain individuals who start out as distant strangers but somehow become our closest friends. There are certain individuals who can somehow bring out our biggest smiles with the smallest effort. There are certain individuals who we will never quite find the words to describe because they are just simply indescribable. There are certain individuals who don’t always know what to say but their actions somehow speak louder than their words ever will. There are certain individuals who care enough to look past what we are going through and instead choose to focus on where we are going to. There are certain individuals who see our every imperfection but somehow manage to find something beautiful in the mess that we call “self.” There are certain individuals who have never quite been through what we have been through but they somehow understand us like no one else. There are certain individuals who we allow close enough to break our hearts but they instead manage to take our hearts from a distance. There are certain individuals who help us to turn wounds that still hurt into scars that only remind us of the pain from which we came. There are certain individuals who will willingly give us their all and will never ask for a single thing in return. There are certain individuals who will not only test us the most but they will also teach us the greatest lessons that we will ever learn. There are certain individuals who we spend time with and each minute that passes feels like unwrapping the perfect gift over and over again. There are certain individuals who come around only once in a lifetime and although they may not remain for a lifetime, their impact somehow will. So, who are these certain people? The truth is…some of us know them and some of us are them. So let us say thank you to those that we know and you’re welcome to those that we show. I’m sure you’ll get it in the morning. Much love and respect.

-Mike Goodman aka Tec

shared by misspek. and i shall share it too!

Yet another cui crit but i guess i'm immune to crits like these already.just gonna brush up on my quality of my work and skills. draw more perspectives and trees. and i need some course for effective public speaking too. dont think i can let this continue in year 2. tt is if i actually pass design. not that i'm being pessimistic here but just feeling a tinge of worry looking back at all my works this sem.

Art versus Architecture
" Art can be anything the artist wants, no matter how dreadful, and it doesn't affect most of us very much. However, when architects build important buildings based on the misguided notion that they are making art, the resulting buildings are a hazard in every sense. People have to live and work in them. If a building is ugly and dehumanizing, society is poorer for it."


10 Reasons Not To Become An Architect
- "architecture school is a bitch" hahaaaa

it's hard to please everyone.

i dreamt of 2 doves today. both were actively flapping their wings flying about. then one smashed into the railings and fell off the building. oh dear. and then the other flew into the house. then i woke up. i dont fancy any birds flying into my house.okay actually the highlight of the dream is the tragic death of the first dove.random dreams...




song on repeat mode!

still havent finish my drawings. guaguaguaaa.

drawredrawredrawredrawredraw.kill trees. waste time.
tt's why i'm still on my first A1.why so slow ah!
OK. I shall get back to work if nt i wont be able to finish all the drawings.
GOGOGO.

what a brillant life this is. 31 hours without sleep.breathing in all the damn wooddust and foam. running and down to the workshop day and night. AND now F as tutor for crit. wad a life.archi sucks my life away. cui to the max now. and i still have drawings to do. oh myyyyyyyy.bangs head on the wall.


cuicuicuicuicui


i want a good and long break.

i love what i am doing now. though its architorture people call it.
but i think i will die earlier from all the inhaling of toxic particles.

busybusybusy week ahead. ohmyy.
wishes time could pass slower but yet fast forward to thurs.
for now, slower the better.

gg to get some slp now!ciao~

finally went back ac today=D saw some friends.talked to some teachers. and baked under the scorching sun. everyone looked the same. not much of a different. the students there looked young. and had to comment that the people coming in looked old.
and then, we realised we're j4s now.

HAHAHA. misspek you aare j6 now. old alrdy lah. ( if youa re reading this) HAHA. just had to laugh at u!heeeheeeeee.

how i wish we could experience the old school days again.wear our pretty uniform, seat in airconed lt. doze off in lectures. slack and nua at bleachers. picnic during pw. HAHA. and i crave for egg omlette even though after eating it every time, you feel urgh. but the crave just comes again. miss sch times!=D

design in a never ending process. there's nth final.
it's almost like asking why why why again for countless times.
but then again, is there really a need to account for every little decision made?


oh wells. it pushes you harder and further. just do it.

Really glad for akicon. how everything turned out so well. and km's face when he finally saw the result. All the hard work, breathing of saw dust, getting cut by nails, fingers sanded, fingernails chipped by the sanding machine and all the little bits of difficulties here and there that kept delaying our progress. hard work paid all. Sweeet.


Have never needed music this much in my life. all the late nights. the silence that can drive u to sleep.
Cant wait after 29thmarch. i need my sleep back. i wanna sleep till late late and just nua my day away.


i hated the bangla today who rushed into the already crowded train and almost crushing my site model. Grrr.

I have been swearing too much of late. It's funny how the word just comes out from my mouth so easily these days. no impact at all. This is realbad.And it all started because of akicon. should REALLY stop swearing.


Self-declared day off tmr!=DD

AKICONisoverrrr=DD

time for more work. DESIGN is damn cui now. diesss.2 days to get hell loads of work and thinking done. ciao!

slept the whole day away.
feels shiok.=DD

I guess i'll be getting a green vaio. the fujitsu didnt lo0k a nice as the photos online. and the student promoter really sucked. i dont think its appropriate to jump into asking a customer what's ur mode of payment when u havent really explained ur product. So i just told him straight i wasnt planning to buy today and tadaa! he walked away immediately. oh please. u will not earn any commission if u serve a customer like this.





okays=) green vaio shall be it.

i better not change my mind again!

black or white?cant decide=\

I WANNA MIGRATE TO THE NORTH POLE.
damn weather these days.


my dear tutor just gave us crazy amount of work. i wonder how i'm going to finish 15 A3s by thursday.hoho to me.


shakes head at Jackneo and the girls.


I want holiday!

jaws drop at all the numbers. why are some ppl so mathematically inclined! craziness.

Anyways, some cool stuff by designer Kouichi Okamoto. interesting!

Handmade by Kouichi okamoto with just aluminium wire and pliers. over a period of 6 months.

Original and genius in a way.

Is this plastic? no. this is glass. nice.

gahhs. i need some exercise.

On a fine and sunny day, this yellow creature is tooooo happy to be out at the beach.
HAHA!

feeling a little excited abt the upcoming assignment. designing sth by far closest to a building. but this comes with lots of work. last one last one then it's holidayyyy=DDD

As much as how hard it is for everyone to see eye to eye,
As much as how easy is it conflicts arise,
As much as how inevitable different each views are,
As much as how everyone should have a right to what they think, what they feel, what they agree and what they disagree.

Some flare it out, some endure.

Everyone has a threshold of tolerance.
sighs. whatever it is, things dont always turn out how we want.
That's life, just live with it.

manz. i can feel my body fighting against my lousy health now.

i wanna go to bed.=(((((( if only i could.

nice!

This is awesome. no wonder they won.

Finished my ss vid today!=DDD now it's essay time and melaka assignment.

it's amazing how a 81 year old woman stricken with cancer, having to rely on monthly welfare services, mother to 2 middleage children both having health and mental problems, having to take care of their everything, worrying about her children's daily meals and little things like the household electricity and water bills and most amazingly still having a unquenchable thirst for knowledge.

with so many things on her hands, she still finds the need for keeping up with the news. like reading the newspaper everyday with a magnifying glass and checking any unknown words with her almost 5 decades old ancient dictionary. amzingamazing.

One living example.

Back! melaka was better than i expected. Awesome cheap food everyday and quite an eye opener on the traffic and living conditions over there. execpt for the drains and hothothot and sunny weather all was good. And ss's vid is postponed.=DD nice.


Feeling a little tired now.

Just wanna thank God for everything=)

Not a single bit of excitement for the malacca trip. too many things too little time. time to sleep on the bus tmr.

You may think you have challenges, but you have so many blessings. Sometimes it takes only a moment of conscious effort to recognize those blessings. Once you focus on the gifts instead of the problems, your whole perspective will change and you will see blessings everywhere.

With God, we are all blessed.

i was at the road junction today while i suddenly thought of something that happened years ago. almost a decade ago. my mum was bringing me to the kindergarten that rainy morning while the sky was still dark. while crossing the road, a car nearly banged into us. To think that singaporeans are usually the ones that wouldnt care less, this kind taxi uncle actually got off his cab and probably did hurled soem vulgarities at the driver.

there are actually nice people around.

haha. just a short reminisce while waiting for the traffic light this morning.

oh wells, it's chinese new year! A little strange with sis not here. but wells, she gets to enjoy herself at kimchi land. like how every weekend is her holiday. grahh. aassignments due next week. a video making infact. u noe how noob i am with computer stuff. oh wells, better get started soon.

steamboat tonight! nice to catch up with relatives.

xin lian kuai le everyone. eat more goodies and get more angbaos!=D

everything sucks. nothing seems to be going well. SIGHS.

how not to feel pessimistic.

feeeeels damn drained of energy.
wishes time would stop and allow me some sleep.
needs to meditata and breathe.



SIGHS.
i feel like screaming.gahhh.

Another awesome singing.!!

The following one is damn funnnnnyyyyyy!

Cant belive i took a week long thinking of a design for my dear folly. and it pretty much still sucks. oh dear brain. please dont fail me.=\\\

The ability to sing an acapella is amazing. all the musicality in haromonizing. wowz man.

skipping sleep tonigt just to compensate the little amount of work done for the past few days.

and whats so unique about these stoools lah. damn stools.

it has been a while since i felt so motivated.=))

horrible week.sometimes i wish i would a person who has no temper. no feeling of anger or disappointment. sometimes i cant help it to feel that way. i dont get pissed off that easily. when i do, the feeling do not just go away that easily. maybe it's just the lows this week. it's hard to get this feeling off. it sucks. i would rather get it over. but i keep thinking about it. and the more i think abt such things. i feel damn emo. ok. it's just this week. things will get better. i should really gt this trivial matter off my mind. i have whined complained ranted swore enough.I nt going to be bothered by this anymore. ANYMORE. let's do work.



The absurdities of the human mind. And the complexity too.

i hope things get better next week.

i should stop making a big fuss out of things. chill rachel chill.

Thank God for everything.

O.M.G

SHINEEISCOMINGTOSINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sighness.

Terrible start to the week. but i guess I've got to work even harder. think even deeper. Maybe some upset will give u push you further. i hope so. but now, my brain's so empty. =(((.

Edison failed 10, 000 times before he made the electric light. Do not be discouraged if you fail a few times.

yeah.time to sleeeeeep!

let's all screAMMMMM!

13 hours..

Remembering the lemon tree

I'm sitting here in a boring room
It's just another rainy sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time I got nothing to do
I'm hanging aroung I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens
And I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast I'm driving to far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens
And I wonder

I wonder how I wonder why
Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky
And all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see
Is just another lemon tree

lemon tree is quite therapeutic........though. the lyrics is probably the direct opposite of my situation now.

Overwhelming workload.

Do your best and God will do the rest Rachel. keep going.
I'm such a self motivator.LOL

For the past week, although sch had officially started, I havent been doing much work. basically, still floating in my holiland. facebooking youtubing tving. I didnt feel the intensity nor pressure that many were facing. That was bad.

Okay. i'm starting work now. I should be putting more effort in my work. No more lazing around.

timeline
fri- submission of 16 sketches and 3d model
sat- sylvie is coming back!yay!=))
mon- crit
tues- sis is flying off thousands and millions of =(((((((((



wad a busy week ahead.sighs!



“There are three classes of people: those who see. Those who see when they are shown. Those who do not see.” - Leonardo da Vinci

Urban had a couple of pages dedicated to the theme of "why men cheat" today. I find it rather inappropriate that the main theme of the day was the discussion of how and the reasons as to why men jump into a extramarital affair. Excuses to their wrongdoings. It wasnt worth it.blahblahblah. but u did it. To allow yourself to fall into something like this and you still draw up reasons to why you did so.

Just don't agree to the point of reasoning to your grave mistake.and especially so cause it isnt a small matter.

So apparently you can cheat because you got your reasons. lol.


Just some ramblings. Don't see the whole point of having that published.


and i need my tutor to reply to my email. or i can tcontinue with what i have done and can dream of having a peaceful week the next week. =((

Am squeezing my brain juices dry already but progress hasnt been optimistic. very stagnant in fact. If only I had a more intuitive mind. God help me! Countdown one hour. Why the hell is that particular object placed there? Make some sense of what you are doing rachel!thinkthinkand think harder!

Feeling the pressure now. Havent get started on anything and that added on to the anxiety i'm feeling. I'll get some progress tmr. yes i will. it's the first week. i shan't stress myself up too much. let my thoughts flow first. oh yeah...the babas.

Today we had our climate responsive aki lecture. Amidst the lecture slides, there was one that showed the impact that buildings have on the environment. It all boiled down to the actions of humans. Buildings. Humans. Inputs and outputs. Regardless of the former or latter, what we humans are contributing aren’t the least beneficial to the earth. No. not even contributing. Be it inputs, such as the wasteful use of natural resources and outputs, such as the various pollutions, we humans aren’t doing any good. Hmmm. It seems to suggest humans are just parasites on earth, using the earth’s precious resources and not giving anything good or positive in return. Hmmm. So now what? We humans shouldnt exist and the world will be a better place? ok. this is probably just my onesided thought.like what is this world wothout any humans.Was pondering over this for a few minutes while my stomach growled away loudly and proudly(lol) during the 1+ plus hour lecture.

Not feeling very positive about design module now. Got to start working. Sighs….cheers coffee

NICE

sch's in tmr! it's kinda sigghhhs to be dragging oneself out of bed.

this is going to be a better sem. time to work my ass off again!
then it will be korea and taiwan trip to look forward too=)

temptation of wife .dramadramarama.