Thursday 27 November 2014
Sunday 26 October 2014
Saturday 20 September 2014
Sunday 14 September 2014
Tuesday 2 September 2014
Thursday 28 August 2014
Monday 21 July 2014
Friday 18 July 2014
Friday 20 June 2014
Tuesday 10 June 2014
Monday 2 June 2014
Thursday 29 May 2014
Wednesday 7 May 2014
Aki school has been full of ups and downs along the ways. more downs than ups. yes forsureeee.
Many times, i keep wondering to myself, if I had made the right decision for such a course, for there were too many depressing moments in archi. One after another. where u get pushed to the edge that you become numb. yes numb. my blog's name.
So bloody numb. or maybe tt's just an excuse. of course i'm affected. I choose to be overwhelmed by my emotions sometimes but maybe in the presence of others, i'll appear numb. But after one, two , three, fouretc sems. I realized all i needed was to hold on. to hold on to something that I may not do that well in. but enjoy very much doing so.
Too often, working on my projects have gave me lots of enjoyment doing so. Even towards the end of thesis , while i was swearing so badly cos thesis was too much to handle. Some part of me knew it was worthwhile, and with encouragement from people and advices, i knew what i was doing was something that was meaningful. and that was enough. In life, as the next generation, i suppose that's what we are here for. to think about what we can do for the future. that's what architecture is about. So much more than just creating something that falls perfectly in the eyes of others. Maybe im saying that cos I no longer care.
ok. digressed too much abt architecture.
Anyway. akischool has made me realised so much about myself. What i like what i dislike What kind of person i am. It has shown me the worst side of myself especially in times of stress. which i would want to change. Akisch has also made me realised how blessed i am. for my family who has given me too much love than i deserve. just way too much i cant even....;')
for friends, for their encouragement and support all the way. even occasional texts of encouragement that gave me the extra push all the way.;')
and for GOD, who has been forever so merciful giving me the strength to overcome this tortuous five years To God be the Glory, The Best is Yet To Be!
JUST TOO BLESSED. really.
Sunday 4 May 2014
Saturday 3 May 2014
Thursday 1 May 2014
Wednesday 30 April 2014
Ending my five years of nodaynonight archi sch. Nth impressive but I have already given my best. ytd I was as usual as nervous.the panel wasn't kind but the affirmation by my tutor did calm me down.
The feeling of hitting the bed under my comfy blanket .it has been a while.
Just wanna tks everyone who have helped.esp the mum n sis. And all ur lovelies for all the endearing support through my last stretch. Greatly grateful.
And thank God for just mercy and grace he has given me in the last five years. without the strength masters year would never have been possible
Time to eat sleep repeat.for nw
Tuesday 29 April 2014
Monday 28 April 2014
Friday 25 April 2014
Thursday 24 April 2014
Tuesday 22 April 2014
A neighbour whom my family has been quite close too passed away recently. It was sudden and unexpected.
I rmb the bubbly her who will always ahare her delicioua cooking.chicken curry yam kueh.ngoh hiang.she would always ring our hse if she prepared one of those dishes, wanting to share with us.gonna be weird walking by her hse be knowing we wont be able to say hi or chat with her anymore.
Will miss her dearly .
Most importantly i believe she is in a better place nw =)
Sunday 20 April 2014
Saturday 19 April 2014
Thursday 17 April 2014
Tuesday 15 April 2014
Sunday 13 April 2014
Friday 11 April 2014
Wednesday 9 April 2014
Sunday 6 April 2014
Saturday 5 April 2014
Wednesday 2 April 2014
Tuesday 1 April 2014
Monday 31 March 2014
Sunday 30 March 2014
Saturday 29 March 2014
Tuesday 25 March 2014
Sunday 23 March 2014
Monday 17 March 2014
Tuesday 11 March 2014
Saturday 8 March 2014
Friday 7 March 2014
Thursday 6 March 2014
Tuesday 4 March 2014
Sunday 2 March 2014
Sunday 23 February 2014
Friday 21 February 2014
Wednesday 19 February 2014
Tuesday 18 February 2014
Sunday 16 February 2014
Wednesday 12 February 2014
Wednesday 5 February 2014
Wednesday 29 January 2014
I find myself absurd sometimes. Can't comprehend why I feel think or act a certain way.
But I guess. Everyone feels the same too.it just that too often ,we just choose to believe how we feel what we do is what is supposed to. And perhaps never do we actually react to these actions.
Wells,
Thoughts before turning in.my brain has been too active these days .at the most unearthly and inappropriate time.k nites.
Wednesday 22 January 2014
Friday 17 January 2014
Wednesday 15 January 2014
Saturday 11 January 2014
and the chinese song playing on youtube is triggering some thoughts that shouldnt reappear.
it's hard not to compare your life to someone's else. you think you are unlucky but come on,
there are so many people out there who which to be living like you.
be content. be thankful.
you are blessed.
things are gonna be better!