cast all your anxieties on him
For he cares for u
Need to push some stuff to the far back of my head nw.
Gettung too affected by the thought of it.Prioritiespriorities.mug nw.worry later.
Tuesday 16 November 2010
Saturday 13 November 2010
OK. i'm feeling alot better now.
so yesterday my crit went really badly. i got shot for this that almost everything. boring simple. just four pavilions with a stairs.6 weeks and ONLY this. blahblahblah. yeah. it was THAT bad. well the thing which always happens is. whenever i think of my final design. definitely it wasnt a five min decision. it went through manymany changes and improvements( maybe) over the course of weeks. you change your idea your design here and there and eventually something for final crit..the thing is...when i'm satisfied with what i have done. reality always and never fail to hit me that its always lacking. it's severely lacking in many aspects.
and yes i do agree i am lacking. sometimes i wonder even if i'm suited in this course. you may like what you are doing but you are just not good at it. you work like shit. suffer many sleepless nights just to come up with ideas drawings and models to only expect nth but uncertainty. uncertainty which always equals to disappointments. and nth good evers result you just doubt.
I always question myself after each crit why i hadnt do this do that. why my designs always fall flat. and each time i see that yes probably something could have been done to improve which i always never see. or maybe choose to ignore subconsciously. maybe there's just too many things to consider that you place emphasis on sth else which tutors maybe fail to see.
Yesterday I did feel a little down not because of bad comments by tutors but more because i could see myself being behind my peers.in other words, i felt my design was just a plain boring little project that was in the midst of many interesting projects.
and i questioned myself why was mine so utterly shitty. now when you just look at your work and just feel like crushing your model. cos u are reminded how lousy it is. like wtf did i come out with sth like this for final crit?and yes in the span of 6 weeks. sth like this ought to be shot down.
sad that i didnt see this earlier.
but yeah.after crit yesterday. i learnt some lessons. and now..i think i got the answer. hopefully=)
still, i believe design is arbitrary. and sometimes ppl just like questioning why is it this angle, this shape. this length... cos you want it that way isnt it.
and form and aesthetics always takes precedence over any thing else. even though sometimes it may not be the emphasis of the project.
just some opinions of mine =)
so yesterday my crit went really badly. i got shot for this that almost everything. boring simple. just four pavilions with a stairs.6 weeks and ONLY this. blahblahblah. yeah. it was THAT bad. well the thing which always happens is. whenever i think of my final design. definitely it wasnt a five min decision. it went through manymany changes and improvements( maybe) over the course of weeks. you change your idea your design here and there and eventually something for final crit..the thing is...when i'm satisfied with what i have done. reality always and never fail to hit me that its always lacking. it's severely lacking in many aspects.
and yes i do agree i am lacking. sometimes i wonder even if i'm suited in this course. you may like what you are doing but you are just not good at it. you work like shit. suffer many sleepless nights just to come up with ideas drawings and models to only expect nth but uncertainty. uncertainty which always equals to disappointments. and nth good evers result you just doubt.
I always question myself after each crit why i hadnt do this do that. why my designs always fall flat. and each time i see that yes probably something could have been done to improve which i always never see. or maybe choose to ignore subconsciously. maybe there's just too many things to consider that you place emphasis on sth else which tutors maybe fail to see.
Yesterday I did feel a little down not because of bad comments by tutors but more because i could see myself being behind my peers.in other words, i felt my design was just a plain boring little project that was in the midst of many interesting projects.
and i questioned myself why was mine so utterly shitty. now when you just look at your work and just feel like crushing your model. cos u are reminded how lousy it is. like wtf did i come out with sth like this for final crit?and yes in the span of 6 weeks. sth like this ought to be shot down.
sad that i didnt see this earlier.
but yeah.after crit yesterday. i learnt some lessons. and now..i think i got the answer. hopefully=)
still, i believe design is arbitrary. and sometimes ppl just like questioning why is it this angle, this shape. this length... cos you want it that way isnt it.
and form and aesthetics always takes precedence over any thing else. even though sometimes it may not be the emphasis of the project.
just some opinions of mine =)
Friday 5 November 2010
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