horrible week.sometimes i wish i would a person who has no temper. no feeling of anger or disappointment. sometimes i cant help it to feel that way. i dont get pissed off that easily. when i do, the feeling do not just go away that easily. maybe it's just the lows this week. it's hard to get this feeling off. it sucks. i would rather get it over. but i keep thinking about it. and the more i think abt such things. i feel damn emo. ok. it's just this week. things will get better. i should really gt this trivial matter off my mind. i have whined complained ranted swore enough.I nt going to be bothered by this anymore. ANYMORE. let's do work.



The absurdities of the human mind. And the complexity too.

i hope things get better next week.

i should stop making a big fuss out of things. chill rachel chill.

Thank God for everything.

O.M.G

SHINEEISCOMINGTOSINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sighness.

Terrible start to the week. but i guess I've got to work even harder. think even deeper. Maybe some upset will give u push you further. i hope so. but now, my brain's so empty. =(((.

Edison failed 10, 000 times before he made the electric light. Do not be discouraged if you fail a few times.

yeah.time to sleeeeeep!

let's all screAMMMMM!

13 hours..

Remembering the lemon tree

I'm sitting here in a boring room
It's just another rainy sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time I got nothing to do
I'm hanging aroung I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens
And I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast I'm driving to far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens
And I wonder

I wonder how I wonder why
Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky
And all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see
Is just another lemon tree

lemon tree is quite therapeutic........though. the lyrics is probably the direct opposite of my situation now.

Overwhelming workload.

Do your best and God will do the rest Rachel. keep going.
I'm such a self motivator.LOL

For the past week, although sch had officially started, I havent been doing much work. basically, still floating in my holiland. facebooking youtubing tving. I didnt feel the intensity nor pressure that many were facing. That was bad.

Okay. i'm starting work now. I should be putting more effort in my work. No more lazing around.

timeline
fri- submission of 16 sketches and 3d model
sat- sylvie is coming back!yay!=))
mon- crit
tues- sis is flying off thousands and millions of =(((((((((



wad a busy week ahead.sighs!



“There are three classes of people: those who see. Those who see when they are shown. Those who do not see.” - Leonardo da Vinci

Urban had a couple of pages dedicated to the theme of "why men cheat" today. I find it rather inappropriate that the main theme of the day was the discussion of how and the reasons as to why men jump into a extramarital affair. Excuses to their wrongdoings. It wasnt worth it.blahblahblah. but u did it. To allow yourself to fall into something like this and you still draw up reasons to why you did so.

Just don't agree to the point of reasoning to your grave mistake.and especially so cause it isnt a small matter.

So apparently you can cheat because you got your reasons. lol.


Just some ramblings. Don't see the whole point of having that published.


and i need my tutor to reply to my email. or i can tcontinue with what i have done and can dream of having a peaceful week the next week. =((

Am squeezing my brain juices dry already but progress hasnt been optimistic. very stagnant in fact. If only I had a more intuitive mind. God help me! Countdown one hour. Why the hell is that particular object placed there? Make some sense of what you are doing rachel!thinkthinkand think harder!

Feeling the pressure now. Havent get started on anything and that added on to the anxiety i'm feeling. I'll get some progress tmr. yes i will. it's the first week. i shan't stress myself up too much. let my thoughts flow first. oh yeah...the babas.

Today we had our climate responsive aki lecture. Amidst the lecture slides, there was one that showed the impact that buildings have on the environment. It all boiled down to the actions of humans. Buildings. Humans. Inputs and outputs. Regardless of the former or latter, what we humans are contributing aren’t the least beneficial to the earth. No. not even contributing. Be it inputs, such as the wasteful use of natural resources and outputs, such as the various pollutions, we humans aren’t doing any good. Hmmm. It seems to suggest humans are just parasites on earth, using the earth’s precious resources and not giving anything good or positive in return. Hmmm. So now what? We humans shouldnt exist and the world will be a better place? ok. this is probably just my onesided thought.like what is this world wothout any humans.Was pondering over this for a few minutes while my stomach growled away loudly and proudly(lol) during the 1+ plus hour lecture.

Not feeling very positive about design module now. Got to start working. Sighs….cheers coffee

NICE

sch's in tmr! it's kinda sigghhhs to be dragging oneself out of bed.

this is going to be a better sem. time to work my ass off again!
then it will be korea and taiwan trip to look forward too=)

temptation of wife .dramadramarama.