Work has been great. Tiring but satisfying and my sleeping cycle is back to normal. And so is my health. Life is gooooooooood.
Wednesday, 7 May 2014
SINCE SCHOOL IS OFFICIALLY OVER, and my mind is just full of exploding emotions now. let me blog...
Aki school has been full of ups and downs along the ways. more downs than ups. yes forsureeee.
Many times, i keep wondering to myself, if I had made the right decision for such a course, for there were too many depressing moments in archi. One after another. where u get pushed to the edge that you become numb. yes numb. my blog's name.
So bloody numb. or maybe tt's just an excuse. of course i'm affected. I choose to be overwhelmed by my emotions sometimes but maybe in the presence of others, i'll appear numb. But after one, two , three, fouretc sems. I realized all i needed was to hold on. to hold on to something that I may not do that well in. but enjoy very much doing so.
Too often, working on my projects have gave me lots of enjoyment doing so. Even towards the end of thesis , while i was swearing so badly cos thesis was too much to handle. Some part of me knew it was worthwhile, and with encouragement from people and advices, i knew what i was doing was something that was meaningful. and that was enough. In life, as the next generation, i suppose that's what we are here for. to think about what we can do for the future. that's what architecture is about. So much more than just creating something that falls perfectly in the eyes of others. Maybe im saying that cos I no longer care.
ok. digressed too much abt architecture.
Anyway. akischool has made me realised so much about myself. What i like what i dislike What kind of person i am. It has shown me the worst side of myself especially in times of stress. which i would want to change. Akisch has also made me realised how blessed i am. for my family who has given me too much love than i deserve. just way too much i cant even....;')
for friends, for their encouragement and support all the way. even occasional texts of encouragement that gave me the extra push all the way.;')
and for GOD, who has been forever so merciful giving me the strength to overcome this tortuous five years To God be the Glory, The Best is Yet To Be!
JUST TOO BLESSED. really.
Aki school has been full of ups and downs along the ways. more downs than ups. yes forsureeee.
Many times, i keep wondering to myself, if I had made the right decision for such a course, for there were too many depressing moments in archi. One after another. where u get pushed to the edge that you become numb. yes numb. my blog's name.
So bloody numb. or maybe tt's just an excuse. of course i'm affected. I choose to be overwhelmed by my emotions sometimes but maybe in the presence of others, i'll appear numb. But after one, two , three, fouretc sems. I realized all i needed was to hold on. to hold on to something that I may not do that well in. but enjoy very much doing so.
Too often, working on my projects have gave me lots of enjoyment doing so. Even towards the end of thesis , while i was swearing so badly cos thesis was too much to handle. Some part of me knew it was worthwhile, and with encouragement from people and advices, i knew what i was doing was something that was meaningful. and that was enough. In life, as the next generation, i suppose that's what we are here for. to think about what we can do for the future. that's what architecture is about. So much more than just creating something that falls perfectly in the eyes of others. Maybe im saying that cos I no longer care.
ok. digressed too much abt architecture.
Anyway. akischool has made me realised so much about myself. What i like what i dislike What kind of person i am. It has shown me the worst side of myself especially in times of stress. which i would want to change. Akisch has also made me realised how blessed i am. for my family who has given me too much love than i deserve. just way too much i cant even....;')
for friends, for their encouragement and support all the way. even occasional texts of encouragement that gave me the extra push all the way.;')
and for GOD, who has been forever so merciful giving me the strength to overcome this tortuous five years To God be the Glory, The Best is Yet To Be!
JUST TOO BLESSED. really.
Sunday, 4 May 2014
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